D.I.D. Inside Out: Recent Episodes
Jana D Rawling
This is my story... Raw. It's my continuing journey with D.I.D. (Dissociative Identity Disorder otherwise known as Multiple Personalities) I have finally come to a place in my mental health where I can process the trauma that originally caused the disorder. I am also battling other medical conditions that have significantly changed my life. So, I have to live one day at a time, even as a Christian believer.
Hope Transcends More than We Can Imagine So, I haven’t posted in a while. I’ve been focusing on other illnesses that I’ve been diagnosed with. You see, I have several rare diseases that cause me horrific pain and disability. I unfortunately suffer on a daily basis. It’s a miracle just for me to get out […]
Who Knew? I’m not like Sybil. Though I can forget things that I’ve done or said, my alters for the most part are co-conscious. I’m highly functioning, or what would be called Functional Multiplicity. I was recently integrated some more — spontaneously. I wasn’t really trying to integrate, I just figured I would integrate if […]
By Rose, Guest D.I.D. writer Arriving to the house I was composed with my makeup done and ready for the gathering of people. Having had to talk myself out of turning around and heading home at least a dozen of times. The first step out of the car was mine and then Ray came forward and […]
Everyone’s dissociative to some degree. People daydream, fantasize, and distract themselves from the realities of life. People fall into addictions to get away from the world. We watch television and movies, listen to podcasts and music, all to find some temporary relief from the stressors of our personal existence. And some of us, like myself, […]
By Guest D.I.D. writer Rose A Little? There’s a small social gathering coming up on Thursday. It’s a bring a Dip & Game type of evening. Could you imagine the reaction of others if I showed up with at least 15 different dips for 15 different parts—all with different tastes and personalities. So, I opted […]
By Contributing D.I.D. Writer, Rose The moon settles in as the sun majestically sets leaving a display of colors painting a picture of a thousand words. Shortly the adventures begin with Ray (a one-year-old part). The nightly fights of why we can’t wander around the house in our underwear with an adult male child in […]
Who Am I? Answering the question of “Who am I?” can be very difficult. With D.I.D. we often lack the ability to say who we are with confidence. D.I.D. eats away at our self-esteem and self-worth because our identity isn’t easy to define, especially since we’ve experienced trauma. Knowing who we are is important in […]
Do you change clothes when you switch? I don’t, but I buy different styles I never wear. What about you?
Stop imitating the ideals and opinions of the culture around you, but be inwardly transformed by the Holy Spirit through a total reformation of how you think. This will empower you to discern God’s will as you live a beautiful life, satisfying and perfect in his eyes. Romans 12:2, The Passion Translation
Love Yourself Loving ourselves for who we are is critical. We were made special, capable of connecting with so many others because we have more personalities. We can be flexible and capable of loving others for who they are. We can love ourselves for our uniqueness. We are special.
I’ll Share My Creativity Something has been bothering me lately. How can I host and maintain four blogs with podcasts on three of them, and videocasts on one? I’m an artist and author and have a lot happening in my life regarding my health. I have been diagnosed with five rare diseases or disorders, yep […]
Jana reacts to YouTube controversy concerning the DID community, and explains how DID works. She also talks about switches and how she is co-conscious with her alters most of the time.
DID can get us in a jam with others. I’ve experienced more of this lately as I strive to understand just how DID has worked in my life. Let’s just take it one personality at a time, together.
People with DID are familiar with constant inner dialog. We have multiple parts or alters invested in everything we do, and the parts don’t always get along.
In this episode I share how I heard about DID and how that changed my life forever. I also talk about my first integration experience and how Jesus helped me in the process. My hope is that you will embrace my story as I remember and tell it without judgement of my spiritual life.
Firstly, DID is not an illness, it’s a disorder like Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD), or Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). Secondly, DID is an ingenious way the body and mind choose to cope in a traumatic situation. Finally, I will do my best to be transparent, honest, courageous, and loving in my posts.