Compulsive Overeating Diary : Recent Episodes
Laurie Weaver
Raw, truthful, day to day experience as Laurie Weaver contends with compulsive overeating and binge eating disorder while learning the principles of intuitive eating.
Rants, thoughts, and updates about how Mark and I have fared during the pandemic. Things to be grateful for. Dawny's call from Feb 2020. Mark shares some wisdom. Our dance moment song is You've Got This by Nick Battle.
Mark and I discuss all of the crazy things that have changed since my birthday party March 9. You are invited to the FB Secret Zen Spot group. I ponder how and why chips have come back in our isolated lives. Our dance music is a wonderful Spanish guitar tune called Los Cabos by Steve Glotzer.
Despite strong winds keeping me off of the mountain, I celebrate 6 years of Compulsive Overeating Diary. Mark and I have a great time with Magician, Bryan Saint at the Magic Castle. I ponder why disappointment doesn't sting as much as it used to. BC Mary calls the Bravery Hotline to update us about her journey and shares a great resource. New BC Yulia from Russia writes in now that she's caught up with all of the episodes. BCs Joy and Carrie comment on Day 181. BCs Fionna and Svetlana are having fun with Color Street nails. Even though I feel like a beauty klutz, I try them and Mark reacts. Today's dance moment is called Figure it Out and it's a fun and quirky ditty I chose because it put a BIG smile on my face.
I feel so great I zip on up the mountain to share a BIG breakthrough I had. Please support the show with participation if you'd like it to continue. Big thanks to financial supporters. Bonus Meditation with positive I am statements. Today's dance moment has some electronic dance flavor called Happy
I brave unusual snowcapped peaks and winter weather to ponder past blessings and challenges as we look toward our future in 2020. I share my professional video game demo. BC Joy has a great idea! How to join our new secret and private FB group. We meet our newest BC, Geert, who posted on the infamous Pathetic Day 4. A special message to a new private BC. I recommend a course on Insight Timer by Andrea Wachter. Mark shares what he's learned this past decade and what he's looking forward to in 2020. Today's dance moment features a relaxing and beautiful tune called Falling Snow.
Hiking is out due to fires in California, so I'm back pondering at Descanso Gardens about the mystical, magical journey that is the food cycle of life. We hear from our very first BC, my friend Cheryl, about her health concerns and her writing dreams. BC North also stops by to comment. BC Dave updates us on the ups and downs of his life and health and how meditation might help. We say hello to two new friends, BCs Joy and Carol M. I share a snippet from my latest blog post about being a senior plus-sized model and ask for more subscribers to my youtube channel for voice acting. Today's dance moment features an energetic ditty called Mud Pie.
It's a Zen Day by the duck pond at Descanso Gardens. I learn why my favorite bench disappeared from the dry river bed. I contemplate what connections mean - especially to ourselves. Hello to new BC V. Comments from BCs Dave, Sue from the UK and Louise from the UK. Mark the Meditator pops in. Today's dance moment is a chill contemplative song called Zen Garden.
Big news that gave me tears of joy! BC Dave shares thoughts and updates about being authentic, Disc Golf, Intuitive Eating, health challenges and why it's ok to give up a previously cherished goal. I ponder about self-acceptance and value. Thanks Dawny and Amazon shoppers. Featured electronic dance music with cool lyrics about positive vs. negative voices in our heads.
Gifts can be a blessing or a curse! I ponder how gifts impact us and how it relates to my food issues. One gift I truly enjoy is the ability to record today's bonus episode with a cool new mic my friend loaned me. I'm mic shopping and it makes a difference to hear them in your own studio. Today's featured song, Vegan Zombies, comes from our old friend, Josh Woodward.
Inspired by supportive comments from BC Dave, I enjoy some wonderful moments up at the next to upper Zen spot where I ponder about persistence in the face of challenges and perceived failure. I'm grateful to BC Petra for her kind video message and for new iTunes reviews from Australia and the UK. We also hear from BCs Kelly and Dawny. For today's dance moment I challenge you all to have a Funky 60 second Dance Party like I did on the mountain. As proof I posted a video of my Funky Mountain Dance to IG as LaurieDreamWeaver.
BC Jody inspires me to think about being authentic. BC Dave shares a resource about the new journey he started with his wife, BC Kathleen. BC Kelly shows support for my acting. We dance our socks off to a new song by Josh Woodward.
I ponder what it means to believe in ourselves down at my local park on the podcast rock. Hear my brand spanking new professional animation demo. Comments and updates from BCs Jo from the U.K., Dawny and Dave. BC Louise from the U.k. goes on the Bravery Report for publicly posting her story. BC Svetlana comments on FB about a short video I posted to IG. Follow me on IG as LaurieDreamWeaver. If you participate and are known to me as a BC, feel free to friend me on FB. BC Louise from the U.K.'s comment inspires me to discuss where participation comes from and why it ebbs and flows. Today's dance moment is a quirky blues tune called Delta Beats by IB Audio.
I'm inspired to appreciate all of my moments by listening to a wonderful, healing soundscape with Tibetan Singing Bowls and nature sounds by Jonathan Adams, AKA the Sonic Yogi. I love it so much, I contacted Jonathan and received his permission to feature this music in its entirety for you at the end of the show.
It's now been over 5 years since I began this experiment...Happy Birthday to Jo from Thailand! Supportive comments from Jo from the UK. Louise from the UK goes on the bravery report for leaving a brave review on iTunes UK. I share a very strange dream I had and what the dream dictionary says about its imagery. Mark the Meditator shares his take on the benefits of meditation. Today's featured music is an early Valentine from me to you called We Go Together.
It's a dark and stormy night as I get back from a wonderful voice acting cruise and end up in continuous down pouring rain and develop a terrible case of bronchitis. Through musical advice I learn to focus on the sun as I ponder my blessings. I come up with a new description for the show. Updates from Jo from the U.K. BC Dave supports via kind comments and shares his latest struggles. We greet our newest BC, Louise from the U.K. We can learn to listen to our inner voices via taste journaling. You and I can Do Anything by Yoo Soo Kim is the episode's featured music.
Social Media doesn't reflect my reality. Big thanks to Amazon shoppers. Why I closed down Stories and Voice. BC Kat from S.Jersey calls the bravery hotline to share her thoughts about acceptance and getting older. Dawny posts her tale. BC Kaydence, who used to be known as BC Kevin, is on the bravery report for sharing her authentic journey of change. Kaydence also shares a meaningful quote and support for Dawny. We greet new BCs Melinda and Jen. Can feeling too good cause a binge? Holiday Foolish Fun from Dawny. Mark and I reveal our focus words for 2019 and let you in on one of our secrets for getting along.
I update you about the California wildfires, a new health issue and why I'm grateful. I share a wonderful tip for creating a kinder, gentler life when dieting or working on any other goal. Please support our friend, Dawny. New BC Shelby gives a 5-Star review on iTunes. Thanks to all who send, or have sent, virtual coffee. Send holiday greetings in by Dec. 15, 2018. Holiday Dance Partay!
A trip back up the mountain creates some interesting lessons. How is life like improv? BC Kat from S. Jersey calls in. Comments are back in business. Send your holiday greetings by Dec. 15, 2018. Happy Birthday Fionna!
What does it mean to be in tune with yourself? Mark and I have been on an Alaskan cruise. How to overcome failing first in our heads. Greet newest BC Christine from Pennsylvania who is on the bravery report for calling and sharing her story. A comment conversation with BC Linda from Sydney. Thanks to Sue from the U.K. for her thoughtful private message. Thanks to new BC Christine from Pennsylvania for a nice 5-star iTunes review and for supporting the show with virtual coffee.
It's easy to wish away our lives waiting for the next good thing and missing out on what we have today. BC Dave inspires us with a meaningful quote. BC Mary S. lets us know about a great web site where we can make cards to cheer up kids in the hospital. Thanks for reaching out about our fire safety and for supporting Mark and me. Dawny catches us up and has a victory. Carrie and I have a comment conversation about improving our body image. BC Dave tells us about his Disc Golf Tourney and what he learned from it. Bcs Jo and Sue from the UK greet new BCs and say hello. BC Mary S. calls with supportive thoughts about making hard choices for our own good.
Positivity is the theme for the day. We greet new BCs Linda and Charliss. BC Carrie shares comments about the mirror exercise from last show. Encouragement from BC Martha who posted about day 11, a very tough day from my past. BC Dave shares his heart. Updates from BCs Jo from the UK and Dawny. Big smooches to Jo for her generous gift. My top 5 tips for creating positive affirmations and 3 samples.
My feet keep me from hiking, but I find a new podcast spot down at the park. Overcoming disordered eating as an Identity. Finding love for ourselves with a cool mirror exercise. Hello to new BCs Martha, Carrie and SAN (AKA Self Acceptance Newbie). Carrie listens to old and new episodes of COD and has questions. It's ok to ask about past shows. Thanks for the financial support and 5-star reviews on iTunes. Mark tells how you can participate. BC Kelly G. touches my heart with her timely comments and Dawny comes through with understanding.
Life has been a struggle, but I go hiking to find the quiet place to listen to my heart. Afterwards, I ponder why this time on the mountain was so unusually scary for me. Dawny calls to update us and to let me know she was thinking of me on Mother's Day. Mary S. ponders anxiety and wonders if other BCs also struggle with this. Insight Timer provides a free meditation class.
Zen flows on the mountain as I discover my own method and I wonder, what's yours? I'm grateful to BCs who've been supporting me and the show, like longtime listener Pat and the Amazon shoppers. A new iTunes review from the UK. New BC Danielle from Brisbane gives me some comments to ponder about why it's so difficult to just say 'Thank You.' New BCs Carol and Shona reach out via PM. Dawny comments after last show.
What's the difference between being brave and being fearless? New BC Elizabeth fearlessly calls the Bravery Hotline. New BC Svetlana shares one of the bravest stories ever. Supportive comments from Dawny, Jo from the UK and Kelly G. Thanks to all who participated in the new version of Fionna's Brave Companion Song, to those who've left great ratings on iTunes, and to those who shared thoughts via Instagram. What are your three words that represent your strength? Laurie reads her Dream Diet blog post. How to subscribe and unsubscribe from email notification.
My 59th birthday blast is filled with love and friends who care. After meditating during an early morning birthday hike up the mountain to the next to upper Zen spot, I share three words that best show my strengths and ask for yours. Birthday greetings and songs from Mark, Josephine, Mary S. and Jo from the U.K. Birthday comments from BC North. All the freebies I enjoyed on my birthday and how disappointments turned to blessings. A wonderful surprising medley of Happy Birthdays by different characters thanks to my voice acting friends. A new birthday version of Fionna's Brave Companion Song.
How do we cope when a cherished dream doesn't happen? Mark and I ponder how to make a positive future despite disappointment. BC Jo from the U.K. responds to our last show with her lovely voice in After Thoughts. Voice Actress, Lorna Duyn shares her talent by voicing a fearless quote by Veronica Roth. BC Dave updates us via comment and shares a great quote from the book he's reading by Brené Brown. Dawny also tells us how her life is going via comment. BC Mary S. lands on the BC Bravery Sports Report for not letting an injury derail her from a fitness class she loves.
How can we find peace with our decisions? Big Xs and Os to BC Josephine for her one of a kind gift. Thanks to Mary S. and Kelly G. for their virtual coffee and to BCs for social support. BC Mary S. shares her word of the year. BC Kat from S. Jersey goes on the bravery report for her courageous decision. Quotes that Dawny lives by. Mark supports my birthday wish. New BCs Kelly G. and Miranda. Comment conversations with BC Dave, Sue from the U.K. and me about Dave's brave authenticity in his down times. How my bike training unexpectedly lands me on the BC Bravery Sports Report.
Celebrate 4 years of sharing together on COD. The power of smiling. In After Thoughts, I ponder gratitude and disappointment. BCs Jo from the U.K. and Josephine send their good wishes and bravery. While wearing my BRAVE tiara, a special 55th birthday gift from BC Suz, I ask the BCs for a special birthday gift for my 59th. Mark shares a quote that enhances his word of the year. Supportive and thoughtful comments from BCs Dave, Dawny, Jo from the U.K., Sue from the U.K. and Josephine. Sue from the U.K shares her quote inspired by her recent bike bravery. Mark and I are on the BC Bravery Sports Report for persisting with our bike training despite setbacks. We relate to Sue's story and are so proud of Sue.
I hope to develop more acceptance. After Thoughts and focus words for the year with Josephine and Mark, who also responds to your kind words from last show. How to send your After Thoughts in. Welcome new BCs Martha from the UK and Patty. Comment conversation between Hayley and Josephine about perfectionism and depression. Dawny shares her thoughts. Inspirational quotes read by BCs Dave and Kat from South Jersey. I have fun with music. Hear the Brave Companion Song Fionna wrote for the 100th episode. How to participate in a new version for the show's 4 year anniversary.
A story from my past makes me ponder compassion. Mary S. asks me a deep question for After Thoughts. Dawny gives Mark some props and has a great idea for focusing on the new year. BC Dave and his wife, BC Kathleen are on the Bravery Sports Report for ignoring their fears and playing Disc Golf in a tournament. Supportive comments from BC Suz and BC Dave. BC Josephine lands on the Bravery Report for lending her voice to our new feature, Inspirational Quotes. My friend, voice actor Hayley Mix also shares a quote and the powerful story behind it.
Time to change for the new year. New music, a new attitude and a new feature, called After Thoughts. Thanks to all of the BCs and Mark for participating in the holiday 2017 show. Our newest BC is Sarah from New York. Her blog, Mindfully Sarah is featured. Enjoy our new song, Circle by Hartley in its entirety.
Holiday greetings from BCs old and new, including Cheryl, Dawny, Voice Actor Ginny Hayes, Mary S., Fionna and her son Alden, and most of my voice acting friend, Eddie L. Fauria's, talented family. A special excerpt of 'A Christmas Carol' recorded by a group of my voice acting friends at our holiday party at soundBox:LA, the professional studio where we work out. Dawny shares some new holiday Foolish fun, Mark and I talk about our unexpected Christmas at Disneyland and our resident Singer-songwriter, Fionna Lane, leads us into our new year with a beautiful new rendition of Auld Lane Syne.
I’m back down to the podcast rock as it’s confirmed, I have a pretty crumby case of Plantar Fasciitis which means no hiking for now. But today’s show will be all about finding the bright side. I let go of success and embrace experience. We greet our newest BC, Patty O., who posted on Daily Adventure Tales. Thanks Amazon shoppers and BC Mary S. for the virtual coffee. I read a blog post inspired by Dawny's comment then I’ll BRAVELY share the tough love BC Dave gave me after. Comments by Josephine and BC Jo from the UK. Get your holiday greetings in by midnight of Dec. 18, 2017 to be included in this year's holiday show.
Learn the power of a new magic word Mark and I have been using lately. We welcome our newest BC Jeanette M and give a special shout-out to the ladies of Jenn Hand's 'The Normal Eaters Club'. BC Dave wins the BIG HEART award for encouragement and ultimate bravery as he shares his personal ghost story from day 148. BC Jo shares encouragement. Dawny updates us about her house and life. Our old friend, Sue from the U.K. shares fantastic news as well as some challenges with her grief. BC Josephine adds her thoughts about how BCs are alike. Send your holiday cheer and creativity if you'd like to be part of our traditional show.
I thank our Veterans for their service then muse about the unexpected benefits of mindfulness.
Happy Halloween everyone! In honor of the day I wrestle with letting go of some of my personal ghosts and turn my most dreaded body part into my new super power. We meet our three newest brave companions, Maria S, Sunny from Taiwan and new BC Kathy C. BC Dave shares his and his wife, BC Kathleen’s experiences with Disc Golf on the BC Bravery Sports report. Dave also weighs in via comments on his thoughts about body image, after my Oprah reaction on day 144. BC Jo sends Dawny and me her comment support after last show. Mark shares a very unique, cheap and effective way to clean your toilet ring on a brand new feature - The BC Cleaning Hacks Report.
Back on the podcast rock after recovery from my skin cancer procedure, I ponder the value of an aging body and what it has to teach us. Dawny checks in with a life update and some much needed support for me after my last emotionally draining show. Thanks to BCs Mary S and Cynthia from the Netherlands for their support via Instagram. Dawny’s latest Foolish Fun in honor of the Fall season.
I face strong emotions one year after Mom died and ponder why we put so much emphasis on our bodies. Comment conversations about life being affirming or draining from BC Mary S., BC Jo from the UK, BC North, BC Kat and BC Josephine. BC Cynthia from the Netherland’s Instagram response after our last show. Snippets from Dawny and Brave Petra who left update comments on compulsiveovereatingdiary.com. Another visit with Mark the Meditator who gives his thoughts on mindfulness inspired by comments from Amy from WI and BC Kat. Mindful Mark also gives his 'meditative' take on successful relationships for BC Laura who is just days away from her wedding.
Yay! Finally live from the Next to Top Zen Place on the mountain where temps are down and my optimism is up as I ponder a new way to look at choices. We greet 4 new BCs: Cynthia from the Netherlands, Carolyn from Oklahoma, BC Kat from South Jersey and BC North from Illinois. Shout out to BC Josephine for stepping right in to welcome new BC North! I share what I learn about myself from BC Kat's brave and truthful call. Jo from the UK gives her colorful take on Foolish Fun - which triggers a happy memory about my time as an exchange student in Germany. Dawny and Stéfanie from Quebec comment on last show. Mark and I discuss some reasons to exercise given by Stéfanie from Quebec, Jo from the UK, Sue from the UK and Mary S. in the return of our feature, the BC Bravery Sports Report. Mark reveals his surprising new exercise plan.
I let go of assuming good things are always hard, share snippets and comments from BCs Dawny, Amy from WI, Josephine and Stéfanie from Quebec. I ponder my take on Oprah Winfrey’s oft-quoted comment about acceptance of herself when over 200 lbs. I read an excerpt from my blog post about the spaced out time warp I experienced in Vegas while attending a live concert by The WHO.
YAY! Wearing sneakers again, so back to the podcast rock. After hearing my surprising answer to Stéfanie’s secret topic of the day on Day 142, I'm inspired to clean up my subconscious. Comments following last show from Dawny and Stéfanie from Quebec. A great idea for us to be more positive based on Stéfanie’s comment. Thanks to Amazon Shoppers and to BC Mary S. for joining me on a project that's just between us. Mark the Meditator returns and he shares some vulnerable truths from his heart.
From Tacoma, WA, I record a special letting go of my past identity across from my old home on Puget Sound. Comments about Day 141 from BCs Josephine, Petra and Dawny. More ponderings along the waterfront as I process how it felt saying a final good-bye to Mom and how BC Dave gave me comfort in an unexpected way. We celebrate a huge milestone with BC Jo from the UK and hear some samples of her many comments. Stéfanie from Quebec returns with a brand new Secret Topic of the Day.
I’m back down to my local park recording from the trusty old podcast rock. Mark and I are busy getting ready to go back home to Washington to lay my mother’s ashes to rest. It’s emotional letting go as I remember my complex feelings around my relationship with Mom. Comments from Petra, Dawny and Mark. Dawny brings some fresh summer-time Foolish Fun. We greet New BCs Rebecca and Kelly from Michigan. The Coffee Klatch is reopened for show supporters. How to switch the country of the iTunes store. BC Jo from the UK's kind review on iTunes UK. A poem I wrote many years ago – originally, called, 'Daddy would you love me?', changed to honor my Mother.
Inspired by the morning meditation Mark and I have been doing, I let go of all the conditions I place on loving myself. An update from Brave Petra about her Instagram post with comment support from Dawny. Dawny shares her mixed feelings about her new job. Lots of BCs named Jo! Our newest BC, Jo from the UK, asks if Any other UK BCs are still listening. Sue from the UK answers along with many friends old and new including BC Jo, formerly from the UK and now from Thailand. Josephine from last show officially becomes a new BC by posting on the bravery report. Welcome new BC, Jane from Suffolk. Sophie from Scotland also pops in on FB and a quick hello from Stéfanie from Quebec. Thanks for supporting the show via Amazon, Virtual Coffee, reviews, FB likes and gifts. I finally work up the courage to put some ink in the beautiful handmade journal Mary S. made me. Mark shares his experience with trying Meditation.
I let go of life on autopilot and learn to see the miracles all around. We celebrate a HUGE bravery report moment for BC Petra. Welcome to New BCs Stephanie from West Virginia who reached out on FB and Theresa who posted on Day 9. We get a sample of comments from Mary S., BC Laura R (soon to be S), Dawny and Amy from WI. Thanks again to Amazon shoppers. Big thanks also to Kindred Spirit, Josephine who left a kind review on USA iTunes, and a big, big smooch to BC Mary S. who sent me a heart-touching gift in the mail. I read a snippet of the blog post I wrote about what Mary’s gift meant to me. We meet my friend and new BC JoJo from CA who stopped by the blog to comment.
I ponder the sacrifices of our service men and women on Memorial Day. BC Rabbit's comments from last show inspire me to think about letting go of my Racing Morning Mind and talk about how guided meditation has been working for me. Dawny presents a niece-approved round of Foolish Fun. Thank you Amazon shoppers for using the COD links to buy your products to support the show. Greetings to new BC Laura R (soon to be Laura S). My struggles with some aspects of social media and a new hashtag for us to connect - #CODBCs. Sue from the U.K. stops by to comfort me on My Motherless Day blog post. Comments from Dawny who shares a BIG milestone and BC Dave, who goes on the bravery report along with his wife, BC Kathy, for trying something new. Mark and my brave bike plans for next year's birthday.
House cleaning bites me in the knee, so hiking is out and the podcast rock is in! I decide to let go of expecting the worst. I tell a story about my miracle party dress. Thanks to Amy from WI, Dawny and Rabbit for their kind comments on a day that was tough for me. Many comment snippets from our old pal, BC Dave. Dawny writes a humorous response to last show. COD goes to every other week for a while.
The unexpected rain causes me to change the day of my hike. I ponder the effects of rigidity and over-flexibility in my life. Dawny greets our new BCs from last show and updates us on her health. Kevin replies to Sue from the U.K. and Dawny who both supported him on the Bravery Report. The importance of BCs supporting each other and 6 tips to help do that. Welcome to new BC Mar. Dawny has special Foolish Fun for bird watchers! Special guest Mark and I reminisce about the many different shades we've experienced in our 23 years of marriage.
I tell my heart-pounding deer tale. I let go of time pressure and discover how time can be a guidepost instead. I share a few paragraphs from my latest blog post about overcoming fear and Dawny’s courageous response. We say hello to new BCs Taylor and Amanda who posted on the Compulsive Overeating Diary page on FB. Comments from last week’s show from BCs Dawny and Rabbit. A touching and brave call from new BC Kevin who last called the bravery hotline on day 130. I ponder grief, connection and how we grow into new identities.
Throw the Status Quo out the window and embrace change. Good-bye Erin Moran, an iconic actress from my middle and high school years. Extra love for BC Rabbit and Dawny. BC comments about Day 133 from Dawny, Mary S and Susie. Sue from the U.K lets us know how she's coping with a difficult loss. I read snippets from my latest blog post about DIScouragement. BC Mary S. goes on the bravery report for her voice mail message about bravery and the challenges she's been having since a foot injury. We ponder tracking food. Does it always lead to diet mentality?
Defeating negative self-talk where we spiral down the hopeless rabbit hole by wishing things away. I come clean about conflicted feelings about day 130. Gratitude to BC Karen for her encouraging note and to BC Susie for her kind phone call. Reading recommendations from Rabbit, Mary S. and me. Hello to new BC Lucie. Dawny makes me laugh with her reaction to my cooking story from the last show. Mary S. surprises me by restarting up the Coffee Klatch! How to send me cards, letters or other physical items. A walk down memory lane about the cool items I've received from BCs in the past. A deep and heartfelt comment conversation between Mary S. and me that triggers my bravery and I share the truth about my eating behavior of late and my feelings about it.
It's a happy hike back up to the next to upper Zen Space where I let go of ingratitude to my own self! An exercise to increase gratitude. I play my Pig Whistle to wish BC Sandy a very happy birthday. Dawny does a whole set of awesome Springtime Foolish Fun. Comments by Dawny, Sandy, and Rabbit (love that name) about the last show. A comment of Rabbit's sparks an idea. Should we have a BC reading list? BC Mary S. saves the day by letting me know about a comments glitch, which I was able to fix. Mary S also wants to know if we BCs are more prone to having a creative side. What do you think? I have a surprising reaction to a couple of compliments. Are we internalizing ageism and sizeism?
Back on the mountain I ponder the amount of power I give to negative thinking and brainstorm ways to let that go. I read a recent blog post asking if you, the BCs, would like COD to continue on as a weekly show, and if you would participate. Some comments about that from Sue from the U.K., BC Petra, Dawny, New BC Rabbit (Love that name!), BC Sharlene, BC Jackie and Stéfanie from Quebec. My pursuit of voice acting triggers some familiar feelings and I give a shout out to the special people in Richard Horvitz' voice acting B class.
Today is about voices - voices we share, voices we miss, voices that bring our stories to life. And sometimes, Life forces you to let go and face up to how fear of failure can rob you of opportunities. I ponder my own lifelong fear of failure through an emotional tale about my mom's passing and how that impacted my progress with voice-acting. You will hear a story my mom wrote when I was a kid that I voiced right after she passed to help with my grief and an interview we did together for an episode of Daily Adventure Tales - just so I could hear her voice once more. I'll share how my voice-acting journey is at present and a snippet from my first professional commercial demo. We will also hear the voices and stories of five BCs, Mary, Susie, Kevin from NY, Jodi from the South, and a BC who is anonymous, who used Speakpipe or called the Bravery Hotline. We'll wrap up with exciting news from our singer-songwriter in residence Fionna Lane and hear the title track from her new alum, Like a Babe.
Walking around the park again! I ask BCs to stop by and post hellos. I let go the idea that I need to be different than myself. Thanks to Dawny for being such a supportive BC. Lessons from voice acting and my latest commercial clip. Appreciating Amy from Wisconsin and Sue from UK and their quilting talents. Why it's good not to eat our feelings - thoughts after watching TLC's My 600 lb. Life.
Love is all around at the very Top Zen place and I enjoy taking a breather after working so hard on my new show, Stories and Voice. I let go of seeing all of the world from only my POV and making assumptions based on that. We send out love and positive energy to BC Jo and we welcome new BC, Kathy. Big shout outs to BC Pat for encouraging me on Facebook and to BC Fionna for writing and singing the theme song for Stories and Voice. I'm on the bravery report for asking for help.
Our Easter 'EGG-stravaganza!' First I ponder my latest tussle with diet mentality, then I share a short clip of Mark and my visit to a familiar spot. I play a snippet of my new podcast, Stories and Voice, featuring the show theme written and sung by BC Fionna, an excerpt of a cowboy story written by Mark and voiced by professional voice actor, Jacques Du Long, and part of the interesting interview I had with Jacques about his history and why he auditioned to voice Mark's story. Dawny's EGG-cellent Foolish fun wraps up our Easter visit to the Next to Top Zen place.
Happy Valentine's Day! This bonus show is my valentine to the BCs who have listened, learned, loved and supported me and one another throughout the run of Compulsive Overeating Diary. I'll ponder letting go of my old self image and read you my latest blog post about acting bravery. You'll hear about my newest show, Stories and Voice, and how you can be brave and participate too! Our newest brave BC Heba, calls via Speakpipe to ask for support and I'll share some of the resources I sent her. I find a poem by Thomas Hardy called 'An Experience' that really speaks to me for today's edition of Laurie's Stories. And we'll finish up our Valentine treat with another song by Josh Woodward that speaks to my creative wish for all of our hearts, called 'The Dreamers'.
This special holiday update features creative work by Mark, me, Fionna and her hubby Matt. Dawny calls in some fun holiday jokes for foolish fun and Sue from the UK gets a new phone for Christmas and uses it to send us her holiday greetings and an update about her home town. Music, stories, and a new holiday song by Josh Woodward.
Send in your holiday audio for the next show. Greetings to and stories from our two newest BCs, Sian from West Australia and Ginelle. The audio of my first ever live comedy routine at a real live comedy club! For Laurie's Stories I record a Depressing Foreign Drama I wrote at writing group at the request of my writing friend Arliss.
My hopes and fears around my first try at stand-up comedy. Hear a snippet from my first open mic. Comments from new BC Vickie, Sue from the UK, Amy from WI and Cheryl. My latest medical report. How Thanksgiving was different for me without my constant focus on food. Thanks Coffee Klatchers who still contribute and to US and UK Amazon shoppers. Why the Canadian Amazon shopping link is no more. Send in hellos or comments for the Holiday Update show. How I learned to feel good enough just as I am.
It's tricks and treats - from Mark's spooky campfire story, Ghost wood, to my experiences learning to be a better actor. Hear from new BCs Emma from Spain and Souad from France. A special thank you to BC Rafael. Get an update on my medical issues and find out what CRAZY new thing I'm up to now! Celebrate with a new Halloween tune called Rednecks with White Faces by Caühaüs from FreeMusic.org.
See episodes 1-120 for the main show. Presenting our first 'COD the Sequel' bonus episode Ta Da! Totally off the cuff I explain why I'm recording from my studio instead of from the mountain. New BC Bailey shares some great wisdom about knowing your own true worth on the Bravery Hotline. Thanks to BC Patt and to Amazon shoppers. Congrats to Dawny for her new job. Welcome BC Lexie. My horrifying scale tale that turned out to be a blessing in disguise. Mark and I throw a virtual party to celebrate Amy from WI's awesome news!
The epic end of the series. I visit all three of my regular podcast spots and walk down memory lane as well as look toward the future. Features include - a new song by BC Fionna Lane titled A Light in the Dark. A live radio play written by BC David Glowen, directed by David Babich and starring professional and student voice actors. Good-bye audio messages from Cheryl, Sue from the UK, BC Dave, Stéfanie from Quebec, María from Spain and Fionna. Foolish Fun with Dawny Taylor. Stéfanie's Secret Topic. Stories read by members of the writing group. Good-bye comments from BCs. We welcome the last new BC, Petra. An interview with Alen Standish. Hear my work in the sound booth with voice acting director David Babich as we work on my professional demo. Mark stands in one last time for my scale, and much much more!
Today is the 'The Last Call' because our next episode, Day 120, will be the final produced episode in the series. My reasons, the details and early reactions. The benefits of self awareness vs. self control. Update on how I'm doing letting go of eating before eating. Comment conversations from Dawny, eM, Dave and me from day 118. 'Food Speaks', a poetic blog post I wrote for Laurie's Stories. Then the real time blog post where I decided midway through writing it to let go of the show and some early reaction comments from Dawny, eM, Cheryl, Amy from WI and Suz. A lovely new 5 star iTunes review from vivid_sketches.
I let go of being controlled by results after discovering a new podcast rock and battling flies. An update on how I'm doing letting go of eating before eating from last show. The show's monthly iTunes worldwide review report. A special thank you to an Amazon shopper from the US. Shows from my old podcast, Daily Adventure Tales, are recommended. Welcome to new BC Karen. Guy BCs are encouraged to participate. Comment reactions from last show by Dawny, Dave and eM. What do you do when starting or restarting a fitness program? I read BC eM's poem, Whole Being Eating, for Laurie's Stories. My painful, yet wonderfully lesson filled blog post called The Three Cs of My Identity Crisis followed up by mindful and thoughtful comments by Fionna, Amy from Wisconsin and Sue from the UK.
It's been more weeks then usual since I hiked up the mountain to my next to upper Zen spot and recorded a show for you. It's partly because I'm learning to let things go a little more, partly my busy life and partly the dang heat that's been knocking me for a loop here in Southern CA. A BIG thank you to all of the active Amazon shoppers in all three countries where I have links that support the show. I ask for prayers and positive thoughts for Mark's special relative. I let go of mindless, automatic eating. We hear from a couple of BCs we haven't heard from in a while, Helen from the UK and Jo, who is originally from the UK, but who now lives and works in Asia. I read a blog post I wrote about letting things go called 'Baby Steps out of a List Slump'. We hear Dawny's reaction to our last show in her own words via Speakpipe. More comment reactions from Fionna, our talented songwriter, Stéfanie from Quebec and Dave, who asks Mark a question. We initiate a brand new feature called the BC Bravery Sports Report. Dawny tells what wogging her half marathon felt like. Mark answers BC Dave's question. A sound sample from my new big girl mic in my newly completed recording space. It's a poem I wrote titled, 'I thought I was hungry'. I list ways I know if I'm hungry or not.
It's early morning on the mountain and already HOT AS BLAZES. I let go of thinking about my body every 6 seconds and replace that with gratitude. This month's iTunes 5-star review writers and some of their reviews. Smooches for each. Also thanks to Canadian and UK Amazon shoppers. We hear from Shea, Dave and Dawny with comments about day 115. Dawny goes on the bravery report for completing a half-marathon! Mark reads his favorite poem, If by Rudyard Kipling. Our resident BC Songwriter extraordinaire, Fionna Lane, shares one of her latest songs, Maybe, and the inspiration behind it. We catch up with Amy from WI and talk about posting statuses. Then we flip the format and welcome our newest BC Charm at the end of the show, because she teaches me something about gratitude. We send heartfelt well wishes to a person in Charm's life.
I ponder criticism's impact on risk and going for our dreams. Thank you to new BC Char, who posted a 5-star review on USA iTunes. BCs have been asking 'Where’s Alen?' Find out from a clip from Alen Standish's and my third interview. Welcome to Char and to other new BCs, including Shelly B. and BC X - who shares a wonderful email, but wants to remain anonymous. Comment conversations from day 114 featuring Dawny, Dave, Myself, eM and Mark. Why is it Mark shrugs off our compliments? Dave’s wife, Kathleen, goes on the bravery report for sharing some foolish fun for the first time and Dawny shares a very funny pair of jokes. I practice voice acting by reading you one of my latest blog posts which includes a dialog between myself and one of my pesky inner voices - Tantrum Laurie.
I meet some brand new friends, Jessie and Nicole, along with their cute dogs on top of the mountain. I let go of my Inner Fat Chick Identity as I ponder creativity and its place in our world. Thank you to Dawny for posting a 5 star review on USA iTunes. Thanks also to Amazon shoppers and to coffee klatchers who subscribe and donate to the show monthly. Stéfanie from Quebec weighs in with her thoughts on day 113. Two wonderful and touching stories from two new brave BCs - Shea and eM. Mark and I launch another new feature - Laurie's Stories. I read a story of my own from last week's wild and wooly writing group that was inspired by the current fad, Cards Against Humanity. Triggered by a comment conversation with BC Dave on one of my status reports, I explore the idea of what it means to find joy.
Frustration is my target today. It's windy, it's crowded, and I have to park my good car in the rugged mountain hiking lot! Thank you to BC Dave for his 5-star review on USA iTunes and to tech guy Mikey, from Jetpack, who helped me solve the technical snafus I shared last time. We celebrate the Bravery of new BC, Shannon, who posts her story and asks for our thoughts on the 'Want Advice?' page. Dawny steps in to welcome Shannon as well as to give us a funny joke for Foolish Fun. We hear what's up with Amy from WI, Sue from the UK, Jill from the UK and Stéfanie from Quebec. BC Dave sends his list for things he does that add value to his life and his request for your list. Stéfanie sends her latest Secret Topic of the Day. Why do we do things we know aren't in our best interests? I sneak in some singing bravery of my own.
I recover my Zen on the mountain. Waiting is on my mind. We welcome our newest BC, Jill from the UK. Featured comments to her from moi, Dawny and Sue from the UK. Dawny Jumps right into our new Tricks and Tips feature with a great tip for those who enjoy their mocha java. Carol from Detroit sends in her kiwi tip via email. Mark's touching comment for BC Dave, who shared his truth via the bravery hotline last show. Some great bike jokes sent in by Dave for today's Foolish Fun. The story of my ironic descent from Zen and how I got it back - including me reading one of my errant blog posts.
Risking some stormy weather I'm back up the mountain letting go of assuming things need to come easily to be part of my path, i.e., I learn to embrace the slog! Welcome new BC Rosemary from New York. Fionna's Brave Companion Song is now available as a standalone. A brand new feature where you call in with tips and tricks about food, fun or life. I start this feature with a tip I've learned recently from Michelle, a great blogger, who writes as the 'Fat Nutritionist'. BC Dave goes on the Bravery Report twice. Once for calling the bravery hotline and again for sharing his story on the Who Are the Brave Companions? page. A comment conversation with Happy, Carol from Detroit, Dawny and me about the list of areas where we deal with our perceived eating issues. Audio comments from Dawny celebrating María from Spain's bravery last show and Nola makes my day by sending in HER version of Foolish Fun.
Now you can listen anytime you wish to the Brave Companion Song or download its file. I asked Fionna to write this song as a way to celebrate our bravery. This version of it was used as part of our big celebration show on Day 100. The 'Brave Companions' are the show's listeners and those who participate by commenting on the blog or who send in audio to be used in the show. BCs are a supportive audience of people all around the world, and luckily for us, Fionna is a BC too! This version was recorded with help from Fionna's sister, Annie.
After a terrible case of food poisoning or stomach flu, I let go of knowing what to expect from my body and assuming I know what it needs. I'll be on call again for jury duty next week (postponed due to my illness) and may not be online. Thank you to a new Coffee Klatcher for supporting the show with virtual coffee and to BC Sandy for recording our shared bonus show last week. We hear some of the comment reactions to that show from Cheryl, Dawny, Amy from WI and Sandy. Foolish Fun from Dawny. Participate in the show with different audio possibilities. We greet new BCs Allie from FB and Dave’s wife, Kathleen. An awesome new song recommendation for the Latin bilingual band, Moona Luna sent by BC Dave. María from a Spanish Speaking country goes on the bravery report for revealing just WHICH Spanish Speaking country she’s from. BC Happy reveals how she’s doing and what she thinks of Kathryn Hansen’s book, Brain Over Binge. My riff about hunger, binges, self awareness and all of the different attributes we juggle when finding tools and methods to help US find our own unique ways.
For the first time ever, I record LIVE with a BC! Sandy and I walk down to the podcast rock at the local park and have a wonderful bonus discussion. We each let go of something different. I let go of being the ONLY one to do tasks and Sandy lets go having to feel productive every second of the day. We also discuss my F-word habit, feeling good enough as we are, what loss, grief and forgiveness can teach us and what other lessons our lives have been teaching us lately. I'm on call for jury duty next week, so I may not be able to blog or record. I'll keep you posted on CompulsiveOvereatingDiary.com Happy Birthday Sandy!
It's a blustery day on the mountain, and despite the wind, today's show is all about the BCs! After I let go of the idea of trying and embrace the idea of being, I welcome a record number of new brave companions - Chelsea, Dave and his wife, Jo, Nola from Alberta, Rachel from Sydney, Justine and Devon. I thank Nola for her 5 star review on iTunes Canada. We catch up with a few BCs we haven't heard from for awhile, including Happy who has questions for us about binge durations and what we think of Brain Over Binge by Kathryn Hansen. We also hear from Lisa, Maria from a Spanish Speaking country and my in person BC pal, Sandy. We celebrate the bravery of BC Carol from Detroit for posting her story on Who are the Brave Companions. We also feature comments on that story by Dawny and Sue from the UK. Amy from WI shares why I asked for prayers for her last show and Stéfanie from Quebec tells us why she's been quiet of late.
I let go of having to justify to myself or others what I want. I ponder my next steps in voice acting and the results of last week's big binge. Featured comments by Cheryl and Dawny. Please keep Amy from Wisconsin and her family in your thoughts and prayers.
Following the worst binge I've had since I began this show, I walk in my local park and talk out my emotions. I advise skipping the letting go segment today if you are already in an iffy mood. It is ironic that when I gave my binge recovery tips on Day 103 I hadn't HAD a binge myself for months, and truthfully, I had forgotten the hurricane force of this type of binge. I can't even call it a visit from the robot aliens, but rather, a full on invasion. Sigh. We welcome new BCs Paula from FB and Phoebe who goes on the BRAVERY Report for saying Hello to us on that very same Bravery Report! Dawny and Patt step in to represent the kindness of BCs by greeting Phoebe right away. Cheryl sends us her audio answer to Stéfanie's question about vanity from Day 105 and I'm pleased as punch that today we have two, count them two, foolish funners! (Thanks Cheryl and Dawny). Then I wrap up the show by reading part of the recent blog post that highlights a possible major player in my binge and some of the many supportive comments I received on it. Featured are comments from Cassie, Amy from WI and Stéfanie from Quebec.
Critical judgement of myself and others is what I need to let go of as I ponder on the mountain. Please send prayers and positive vibes to Cheryl's family. Welcome new BCs Carol from Detroit who goes on the bravery report for reaching out and Colleen who gives her reaction to the beauty of the quilt Amy from Wisconsin made me. More comments about Amy's quilt from Suz, Sue from the UK, Stefanie from Quebec and Amy herself! Stefanie from Quebec asks for our opinions on vanity when setting our body goals. A Shout out to our missing BC, Happy. A comment conversation with these same BCs and Dawny about bingeing, food tracking and how we feel about ourselves. The unknown Foolish Funner brightens our day with a new chuckle and I wrap up the show with my thoughts on 'What is enough?'
I bravely model Suzanne's birthday gift of a 'Brave Tiara' as I get ready to record day 104. I didn't mean to snap photos of my sports bra for public viewing, but I was having such a great time looking at my crown from all angles this photo was born. After recording the show, it turned out to go really well with my topic too!
It's an emotional day on the mountain as I look back at my past and share the results of my recent trip home to Tacoma, Washington. Dang crows kept me from recording yesterday! Hear just a snippet of their crazy cawing. I'm off on a birthday trip for my big 56. Welcome to new BCs Becky from the U.K. and Lisa. How I determine who to welcome and how much to spill. Changes to the show notes pages on CompulsiveOvereatingDiary.com. Thanks Sue from the U.K. and Suzanne for welcoming new BCs in my absence. Big smooch and thanks to Amy from Wisconsin for the wonderful surprise gift she sent. I LOVE it! Dawny's question triggers me to ponder about how we know when our body is at good weight in our own eyes. Suz goes on the bravery report for sharing her audio questions about bingeing and I give my tips and ideas about how to recover.
Bravely facing up to the truth. Our truth, the truth of how we're seen in the world, the truth that our truth can change and that's ok. New iTunes reviews. How to support the show and the truth about where that money goes. The Unknown Foolish Funner gives us a chuckle. Suzanne is on the bravery report TWICE! One of my last voice acting class dialogs with my scene partners Phyllis and Roger. Comments about our epic episode 100 from Cheryl, Patt and Sue from the UK. Thoughtful reactions from Suzanne and Stéfanie from Qubec to the truth of size-ism as ranted by me last show and in a blog post called Fitting In – Hating the Simpsons and Loving the Kindness of Strangers. How to be in the next edition of Fionna's Brave Companions Song.
Letting go of being motivated from the outside. Reviewing my rage at size prejudice - e.g., the Simpson's latest episode. A sample of my latest character voice work as a bulldog as requested by Sue from the UK and Suz. Cheryl has Foolish Fun introducing us to Penelope, her inner insomniac.
It's time for the Brave Companions to Partay! We celebrate Compulsive Overeating Diary's one year anniversary and its 100th episode with music, good wishes, interviews and the debut of The Brave Companions' Song featuring BCs from around the world written and sung by our own BC and talented song writer, Fionna Lane. We'll feature greetings and well wishes from many BCs and reminisce about their roles in the show. We'll check out the latest versions of every regular feature we've had on Compulsive Overeating Diary, including Foolish Fun, Mark's No More Diet for Laurie Report, and Stéfanie's Secret Topic of the Day. We'll get another wonderful musical treat from Suz. We'll go together to my writing group in Burbank, CA and talk to its founder, Samantha Marquis. I'll read you the latest story I wrote there. Then on Bravery Saturday I'll take you on my voice acting adventures . We'll take a look at what it takes to polish a monolog from start to finish. We'll have interviews with my singing teacher Viki Hilferty, my voice acting coach David Babich, and my voice acting teacher and director Marc Cashman - all sharing with us what it took to make THEIR dreams a success and their advice for us on ways we can try to do the same. It's an awesome day of memories and surprises. Don't miss it!
Letting go of defining ourselves by outside attributes. I'm a person with a podcast vs. I'm a podcaster and why the change in perspective helps. Next show is day 100 and will be recorded exactly one year since Compulsive Overeating Diary was launched. Please lend your voice to the celebration! How to be part of the Brave Companion song. Go ahead and post your general thoughts and issues on the status pages. A fun trialog from voice acting class with scene partners, Rhonda Clarke and Tom Smith. Welcome to new BC, Adam from Seattle. Mark is so moved by Suz's brave words last show, he posts his first comment on the blog. Amy from Wisconsin is on the bravery report for her call to the bravery hotline about how facing the Dr.'s scale can be an emotional trigger.
Despite my latest bout with depression, I hike the mountain to let go of self-anger. I fill you in on my social media changes. Welcome to three new BCs, Lisa, Happy, and Natalie from Australia. Suz goes on the bravery report for her live commentary about Day 97 and how it triggered her to consider the origins of her distrust and people pleasing. Suz gives a shout-out to Brandi for her bravery hotline call on day 48. I share the highs and lows of my latest voice acting adventures. I then use my best voice acting skills to read you my watershed blog post, Warning! Catharsis ahead – not for the faint hearted! Strong Language! And btw, I DON’T have a blasted weight problem! I welcome new BC, June who commented on that post and feature Dawny's supportive comment.
I'm totally surprised when distrust bubbles up as what to let go of today. I ponder the roots of why I don't trust myself or others and how I might let down that wall. I highlight the blog of BC and Instagram buddy, Sarah Nicole Hupp, then I tell tales from Facebook welcoming new BC Mary, finding out what Suz is up to and I answer a serious question about the diagnosis of compulsive eating. Thank you to my latest generous Coffee Klatcher and my first Canadian Amazon shopper. A new country floods the blog with visits, our first BC from Israel, Stacey comments, and Stéfanie from Quebec reveals her thoughts about our holiday show. I discuss what's under my latest serious tangle with the Robot aliens and the support I received from Dr. Nina Savelle-Rocklin on her secret FB group and BCs Sue from the UK, Dawny, Cheryl, and Fionna on my own blog post.Finally Dawny shares great news and gives us a unique way to approach the new year.
From the mountain top on New Year's Eve Eve I ponder the difference between disappointment and devastation. Stats about the blog. Who were the top 5 posters? Which episodes or posts were the most viewed? How many sold out shows of the Sydney Opera house would be equivalent to the total views of CompulsiveOvereatingDiary.com in 2014? Sue from the U.K. goes on the bravery report by telling us in her own voice about a special Christmas service she attended. BC Fionna's latest entry about the coming year on her own blog, Fionna Sings, is featured. More about where you can post on CompulsiveOvereatingDiary.com. My watershed moments with self awareness, fun and feeling unexpectedly fat during Mark and my holiday in the Danish town of Solvang in California wine country. Supportive comments by Fionna, Dawny and Cheryl. A surprising comment from my therapist.
Live from the Next to Upper Zen spot, I ponder letting go of 'woe' and bringing in the 'yay' just in time for our first annual Holiday Extravaganza. We get caught up with Kendra the Librarian, Hear greetings from Stéfanie from Quebec, Alen Standish, Mark, and our fake son, Steve. I have fun getting all Jib Jabbery with the holiday selfies. Suz goes on the bravery report for whipping up the courage to speak to us for the first time on Speakpipe before she plays her holiday concert piece, 'Have yourself a Merry Little Christmas' on piano. I put myself on the bravery report for daring to sing 'Winter Wonderland'. Fionna rounds out our annual concert by singing a great rendition of 'I'm Dreaming of a White Christmas' while playing the ukulele. I tell about last year's Christmas show for Daily Adventure Tales and play a bonus clip of a poem I wrote as a youth called 'Twas the Groove Before Christmas. Special holiday music by the United States Marine Band.
Unhealthy fear blocks opportunities for adventures and fun in life. A HUGE SMOOCHEROO for my latest, generous coffee klatcher and Amazon holiday shoppers. Please help spread the word about our brave companion message by rating and reviewing the show where you listen. A special thank you to Stefanie from Quebec for giving Dawny feedback on the Advice wanted page. I request some holiday selfies and ask you to call the bravery hotline or use speakpipe to send holiday greetings. A snippet of the Brave Companions song Fionna is writing for us along with a volunteer demonstration by Mark of how you, the brave companions, can participate. Support for my latest blog post all about how I'm combating triggers for feeling fat and how I stood up for myself at the Dr.'s office. Comment conversations include moi, Cassie who goes on the bravery report AGAIN for her response to the blog post, Dawny, Sue from the UK, and Stefanie from Quebec. We'll also have some comments about Fionna's song, Brave and Free, shared with us last show. I do my first ever author requested book review of Dr. Marcia Sirota's latest, Loving Heart, Quiet Mind, Healthy Body. Hear my latest adventure in nerdy character voice acting with my scene partner, Michael. Finish up with the FUN Stefanie from Quebec's having with her account on Instagram.
I record just ahead of a storm and in the spirit of new beginnings I let go of the weird idea I can control the past. Thank you to new supporters of the show with cups of coffee and Amazon. If you are in the USA, Canada or the UK, please support the show by doing your holiday shopping via the show's Amazon links. Want a daily dose of bravery? Follow my dedicated bravery saying Twitter account, TheBraveryCoach. We celebrate Stéfanie from Quebec, Amy from WI and Dawny's warm welcomes to our NEW Brave Companions from last show, Vena from Texas, Fernando from Brazil and Shell from Wales. Welcome to Cassie, our newest brave companion, who goes on the bravery report for posting her first public comment on one of my blog posts. There's a brand new feature on Compulsive Overeating Diary, the blog and show inspired by Dawny’s very brave request. Even MORE touching and exciting bravery as Marquita overcomes her fear to tell us via Speakpipe her own experiences with legalizing trigger food. We feature a wonderful song called Brave and Free written and sung by our very own Brave Companion, Fionna Lane, who will also share in her own words, the brave steps she took in order to write it. We announce an upcoming song we are going to co-write and ask for your help.
Taking a chance I grab my umbrella and record from the beach of Ventura in the lull of a rainstorm. I explore how assumptions can derail us from our dreams and goals. We welcome three new brave companions who step forward to share their stories. First is Fernando from Brazil who has just realized emotions play a part in his eating issues, despite feeling too skinny his entire life. Next up is Shell from Wales, who has visual as well as eating challenges and is delighted to find companions via the show. Then comes Vena from Texas who goes on the bravery report for posting her story for all to see on Day 91. Featured too are supportive welcoming comments to Vena's original post by Cheryl and Stéfanie from Quebec. Chelsea is another new BC who contacted me on Facebook and shares her blog, Random Thoughts. Finally it's time for another of Stéfanie's Secret Topics of the Day - In this, the fifth in the series where Stéfanie surprises me, she comes up with a pertinent topic about schedules and social life getting in the way of our goals.
The day after Thanksgiving I hit the bike path along the coast of Ventura to ponder my own Thanksgiving memories and to wonder, do we NEED to keep doing things the way we always have? Stéfanie from Quebec comments on Thanksgiving in Canada, Amy from WI has a great Thanksgiving and Cheryl's hubby has a surprising victory on Turkey day.
Tiger's disappearance and eventual reappearance teaches me to let go of making my body size the main focus of my life. Stéfanie from Quebec, Dawny and Mark all share their gratitude for the holiday. María from a Spanish speaking country takes a brave step by letting her voice be heard. I celebrate María's act by speaking a little Spanish myself. Sue from the UK and I share comments about day 89's letting go topic. I read my blog post about getting the blues on a windy day. Several BCs give great thoughts about that blog post, including Diane the champion, Amy from WI and Patt who are on the bravery report for their candor. My voice acting classmate Tye and I have a couple of great reads. Mark gives his take on Intuitive Eating and my progress.
The waves crash as I podcast from the coast of Ventura, CA. How does our past impact us and how can we let that go? The body of the here and now is a wonderful and marvelous thing! Please call or send audio of what you are Thankful for in time for the holiday show. Thanks to María for her 5-star iTunes review in her country. I update my progress with legalizing the chips. What reasons might keep you from looking at deep emotional eating issues? Supportive comments about my chip legalizing from María, who's earned a spot on the bravery report for posting her first public comment, and Fionna, who also writes a touching post about Intuitive Eating on her own blog, Fionna Sings. Cheryl's comment is linked to from today's show notes. Leora Fulvio, a well known eating disorders therapist, stops by to post a thank you. BC Rachel gets some input on her questions about procrastination and time changes that she posted on day 64 from Stéfanie from Quebec and Sue from the UK. Also featured is Rachel's reaction to my request to refrain from giving me unasked for advice on Day 71 and my thoughts on what she brings up. I share about my latest blog post about how inspired I was by the latest musical Mark and I saw, Kinky Boots. I also thank the BCs who supported me on this emotional blog post, Diane the champion, Dawny, and Cheryl, along with Stéfanie from Quebec, whose comment I share because it sums up the various thoughts so well.
Warning! Don't listen if food talk triggers you. In this 100 percent bonus episode I walk around the park sharing the raw, unvarnished method I use to legalize foods and, in the long haul, reduce my own binge eating behavior. I do this with the support of a therapist. Not recommended on your own if you have binge eating tendencies. Also, Mark and I will be gone off and on for the rest of the year, so don't worry if shows or replies have a slightly longer gap than usual.
Celebrate our 40 week milestone! Stories, announcements, surprises, stats and other fun. Freaked out from current Robot Alien events, I delve into the reasons and decide to let go of indecision. Learning to trust myself to know my own best path and then to stay the course is key to both my comfort and my progress. Welcome to new brave companion, Kerry, and thanks to Cheryl and Dawny for commenting on my guest blog post on Dr. Nina's blog, Make Peace with Food. I ponder communication and support with help from comments from Sue. Dawny calls the bravery hotline and puts herself deservedly on the bravery report for opening up and honestly seeking support from the BCs. Patt also steps up right away to support Dawny. I put myself into Foolish Fun mode by reading a short story I wrote in my writing group about an alien named Griffin who fell to Earth after disobeying his father. I hope other writers may follow suit. BC Rachel supports Amy from WI who called the bravery hotline on Day 65, and asks us all for our thoughts about procrastination. I reveal why I'm now following myself on twitter and why I love Instagram.
Alen chats with me about his own binge eating story, how he started his podcast, Quit Binge Eating, and the very personal reasons behind why he changed its title and focus to Progress, Not Perfection. Thanks to Brave Companions Amy in Australia and Patt for their 5-star iTunes reviews. I'll be guest blogging for Dr. Nina Savelle-Rocklin's Make Peace with Food.
We celebrate Halloween with scary tales, tricks, special music and other surprises. Mark returns as our annual Ghost Host to intro all of the fun. Cheryl and Suz's comment conversation on day 79 about how it feels when people comment on our weight loss, inspires me to ponder how I feel about that scary topic and to ask all of the BCs to post their feelings too. Halloween special segments include an opening Halloween greeting by Dawny, a true-life ghost story written by Cheryl, Music from Suz and my voice acting friend, Max, reads the Legend of Stingy Jack, a story Cheryl sent in about how the tradition to carve Jack O' Lanterns began. Mark writes and narrates this year's spooky campfire tale. Halloween songs by Apache Tomcat and TinyFolk.
Where does using personal effort and energy best serve your life? I decide it makes the most sense for my personal energy to let the live YMCA group and the Sparkpeople team go due to lack of likely participation. I muse about various social media outlets and which ones I actually use more often than others and why. Thanks to an Amazon shopper for using Compulsive Overeating Diary's link prior to an amazing purchase! New Episode and Blog Post index pages take the place of the broken episode widget. Suz and Cheryl have submitted their Halloween fun. Send your audio or written Halloween items in! Welcome to Lauren from Down Under, a friend of Amy from Australia. Featured comments supporting Corinna from Dawny and Suz. Thanks to others who took the time to post. Cheryl is not only the first BC to put herself on our new Bravery Report page, she's also on the bravery report for her brave and heartfelt writing dedicated to BCs on her blog, Wellsprings and Dragonfly Wings. Stéfanie from Quebec gives us words to ponder about how literal are we with what we say.
Procrastination can delay more than your chores. It can put your entire life on hold and kill your dreams. Corinna, from the live YMCA support group, is on the bravery report for recording her thoughts after our first meeting. The YMCA group will continue on and we have an actual bravery report now! We also have a show audio archive again. Featured comments by Rachel about perfectionism, Amy from Australia about my weight photos, Suz about supporting Amy from WI and me, Cheryl about knowing when to give up an activity without guilt, and Sue from the U.K. about the value of persistence. I share my latest singing adventure as well as my voice acting report card results.
Giving up too easily can be an automatic response and a terrible dream-destroying habit. A special shout-out to Heung, a lady I met hiking after recording last episode. Hear clips from my latest voice acting class with my scene partners Len and Matt and learn why I'm so glad I didn't give up after last week's snafu. Welcome to new brave companions Joe, who posted on day 1, and Kelly who shares her story and tells about her new healthy eating blog. Thanks to the latest Coffee Klatch subscriber and I share why it touches me so much, ala Sally Field's famous best actress win quote. Alen Standish releases our second interview on his show, Progress Not Perfection, and thanks to Cheryl's great idea, I interview him back for one of my future shows. Hear about my ongoing YMCA live support group and how the first meeting went. Amy from Wisconsin calls the bravery hotline about her stumbles with intuitive eating and how she refocuses. Featured comments from Suz, Cheryl and Stéfanie about negativity, bravery and creativity. Send in some fun Halloween audio or stories if you'd like a special Halloween episode.
Letting go of inappropriate levels of devastation is today's topic as I share a cringe-worthy story from my latest voice acting class despite encouragement by Sue from the UK and Jackie on Facebook. Thanks to Sofia and Courtney for their 5 star iTunes reviews and to Suz for being an Amazon book shopper through the show link. The live support group starts tomorrow! Greetings and welcome to new brave companions June, who found us on the Natural News, and to Amy who is sharing our show with a group of ladies in Australia! Foolish Fun is a musical extravaganza featuring Suz's piano rendition of a song that really surprised me. Long-time listener and one of the very first brave companions, Jenny, steps on the bravery report for stepping off the scale and into her new life. Supportive and brave comments are featured by Marquita, Stéfanie, Suz, Amy from WI. and Rachel
I'm freaked out and ask for help sharing the details of the upcoming free support group I'm facilitating at the YMCA. I also ponder possible childhood reasons of why I always feel that nobody will EVER come to my party. Marquita and Amy from Ohio call the bravery hotline with their reactions to Day 78's bravery tip
How can we let go of our false selves and learn to express who we are? Welcome to new BC Rachel who recommends a new podcast for us to check out. Now available, a certificate of completion for Brave Companions who have listened or binge-listened, all the way through the episodes so far! I announce my upcoming live support group - details to come. Touching letters from two new brave companions on the bravery report, María from a Spanish speaking country and Amy from Ohio. Courtney, another new brave companion is on the bravery report a record three times in one day! Once for her bravery hotline call, once for her comment on day 4 and once for posting her story on Who are the Brave Companions? Dawny also calls the bravery hotline with an update about her vacation, how she's doing with intuitive eating and what SHE's bravely giving up today! Featured comments by Stéfanie from Quebec and Amy from Wisconsin. I also reveal my secret binge behavior these days. Courtney ends the show by making me LOL!
I rush down to the park to squeeze in a bonus walk and talk before we leave for a memorial service. I ponder how to stop letting what others say or think about me, or what I THINK they think of me, determine my mood. Josh's album, The Simple Life, which contains my theme song, I'm Letting Go, is the resource of the day. Quick shout-outs to new brave companions, Courtney and Amy from Ohio, who will be featured next episode. I explore how dieting really IS the flip side of my binge eating disorder. I appreciate the new things and relationships in my life now that I have space in place of food obsession. I reveal my inner body fears and how I overcome them.
When might limiting some kind of food become a free choice rather than an event that triggers diet mentality? Mark and Laurie go bike riding on the LA River Bike Path. Mark gives his monthly unbiased report on Laurie's progress. Laurie's excited by her voice acting teacher's comments on her last take. Marquita and Stéfanie have their comments featured.
Why do I always want to isolate and what can I do about it? Alen recommends via text a great movie that's on Netflix about voice acting and I wonder if we shouldn't share cool movies and books on the show? Besides supporting the show financially with cups of coffee you can also support it with likes, reviews and ratings so new brave companions can find us. Stéfanie from Quebec supports us with her comments on Day 74. I get encouragement for my singing and acting with comments from Sandy, Cheryl and Stéfanie. Fionna calls the bravery hotline with her opinion. Helen cheers me up with another joke on Foolish Fun. As an experiment, Dawny and I Skype about Intuitive Eating.
Back on the mountain I let go of the stew of anxiety and doubt swirling around trying new things, newly tight pants, photos that make you look as bad as possible AND discover that Photoshop can crop your negative thinking as well as those pesky bad photo angles! Max's 20/20 show is delayed due to the passing of Joan Rivers. I'm LaurieDreamWeaver on Instagram and I like to see your photos. A shout-out to Sophie from Scotland. I decide to make certificates for catching up with all of the show episodes and mention how to sign up for the show email list so you can be one of the first to see them. Welcome to new brave companion Annie! Last show, Stéfanie's Secret Topic of the Day triggered a comment conversation between Cheryl, Marquita and me. Marquita is on the bravery report for calling the bravery hotline! I'm on the bravery report too for sharing the stories and clips from my first voice acting class and my first singing lesson.
Surprise! After waking early I head to the podcast rock even though just the day before I had recorded a long interview with Alen Standish. Letting go of internal fear is one of the topics of the day. I share my latest bravery news. Thanks to the newest Coffee Klatch subscriber and to Amazon shoppers in the USA, Canada and UK! Welcome to new brave companion Marquita who posted her story on Day 71. An update from Alana on Facebook with her reactions about housework and catching up with the show episodes. Cheryl has a question for us based on Stéfanie from Quebec's comment on day 73 about what's under our reactions to unsolicited advice. Another great comment conversation between Helen from the UK and Amy from Wisconsin on Day 72 about intuitive eating. Stéfanie from Quebec asks her secret topic of the day about what's under the fear of emptiness?
Last week's whacked up events demonstrate my total dependency on schedules and how I need to let that go and become more flexible. Thanks Helen for your funny joke and 5-star review on UK iTunes! Thanks too to Amazon shoppers and Coffee Klatchers. Several BCs chime in and give support to Shaunie L, Diane the Champion and express their comments about unasked for advice. More thoughts on being selfish vs. being self-supportive. Responses to Kendra's question about what to do when you are mourning the loss of food as a coping mechanism. The unknown Foolish Funner tells a joke that transports me back to when I was a teacher. Brave Companion Amy asks for our thoughts and opinions about how much is a good amount to eat when learning Intuitive Eating.
Totally stressed out from a podcast technological disaster, I head off to the park to blow off steam. I'm encouraged by a call from Sarah from Wisconsin on the bravery hotline. Kendra asks our opinion on what replaces food and do we mourn our old relationship with food? Helen is a knock out during Foolish Fun. Diane the champion is on the bravery report for calling directly following a binge and for her great plan to deal with it. Brave Companion Suz shares inspiring songs on Facebook.
I dig deep to discover, define and then actually share my fears, concerns and boundaries around giving and getting unasked for advice. Learn about the wonderful album that my theme song, 'I'm Letting Go' comes from. Shauni L is on the bravery report for calling the bravery hotline and telling her story in her own words.
Hold on to your hats and glasses, it's going to be a wild and wooly time on the podcast rock today! I have an epic tussle with a newly discovered inner bully and kick its ass to the curb! It all starts when waking up in an unexplained blue mood for the second day in a row, I strap on my recorder, grab my half-written notes and head off to the park to figure myself out. In this hybrid episode of bonus off the cuff rambling and regularly planned notes, I decide to let go of having to feel wonderful every single day and ponder the source of my recurring blue mood. While I'm pondering, I give thanks for the new 5-Star rating on iTunes USA and a heartfelt special thanks to my second podcast subscriber. I reminisce about what I learned from my past diet history and discover that bastardly inner bully. Well, let's just say I enjoyed what came next! Shauni L calls the bravery hotline with her reactions to Day 69 and earns a place on the bravery report for allowing her voice to be heard. We hear the reactions of Dawny and Diane the Champion to hearing their own bravery hotline calls last show. Cheryl and Helen also post encouraging comments.
It's an unexpected Scottish appreciation day in honor of BC Sophie as a bagpipe player practices in the park on the very day I was mysteriously hungry for, and baked scones for breakfast! I thank all of the Coffee Klatchers and Amazon shoppers and explain how you can use these ways to support the show and how to get onto the various special email lists. I try to correct my last show's mispronunciation of Brave Companion Fionna's name and take proactive steps to correctly welcome new BC Alana from Facebook. We hear a cool hiking analogy from our caller from Rhode Island, who I'm now calling BRICE as a nickname for Brave Rhode Island Companion Extraordinaire, because it's easier than Brave Companion from Rhode Island. Together we muse on how much time compulsive eating takes up and what we might do instead. New BC Shaunie L calls the bravery hotline and allows me to share some of her story, but not her voice as yet.Cheryl leaves another supportive comment on day 68 and I tell all of the Brave Companions just how much their support on day 67 and day 68 did to help change my mind and my life. My new voice acting buddy and honorary BC, Max and his friends make a killer video on YouTube called Les MiseraBaristas. We hear two very different Bravery Hotline calls from my new dynamic duo, D and D, Diane the Champion and Dawny. We discover Dawny's been on the Half Size Me podcast! Diane reveals her own, very personal feelings about her current interactions with food. My husband, Mark begins a new feature where he tells it like it is about my progress and what it's like to live with me now vs. when I was dieting. He will report monthly from now on in lieu of my scale. Finally, I muse on my main topic, What's the difference between eating intuitively and just eating all that you want whenever you want?
I mourn actor and comedian Robin Williams and ponder my own experience with depression. I decide to let go of feeling repsonsible for what happens to other people. For example, I felt I was disappointing you on Day 67 by not being thinner. But after exploring my issues with the diet/binge cycle further I realize I need to be true to myself and continue on with Intuitive Eating. I'm super excited when Brave Companion Cathi from Connecticut calls the bravery hotline during her own walk to share her take on intuitive eating and how she really feels about my journey. Brave companions Amy and Sue also post encouraging comments on Day 67. I really appreciate the support and it helps me look deeper. Welcome to new listeners Sandra and Suz who both post on Day 4, to Diane, a Body for Life champion, who posts several places to share her feelings and to support Crystal and others. Also welcome to new listeners and brave companions from Facebook, Fionna, who has a wonderful blog herself, and to Lisa, a successful loser and maintainer, who has made a decision to try intuitive eating herself. Many of our brave companions are good examples of why we can't assume people's relationship with food by their size.
I ponder my sudden burst of body shame and explore possible reasons why I feel I may disappoint listeners and myself. I tell about a cool Facebook group, Operation Global Change that supports the body acceptance movement. I update my Amazon page to include my favorite things and thank the generous shoppers who use the Compulsive Overeating Diary link for USA, UK and Canada. I listen to the Coffee Klatch and update my buttons on their feedback and advice. Finally, the Unknown Foolish Funner makes us all feel good!
Insecurity seems to be another excuse to give yourself permission to fail. I ponder this and ways to gain clarity on what we actually want for ourselves. Thanks to the 5 dollar senders, aka my new Coffee Klatch and to the Amazon shoppers for supporting the show. Welcome to new Sparkpeople team members. Thanks also to Melb4564 whose 5-star iTunes review causes me to ponder on the nature of cross-addiction and overspending when dieting. New brave companion Cathi from Connecticut is on the bravery report twice! Once for her comment and once for her brave call to the bravery hotline. I tell the harrowing story of my latest bike incident. Welcome Maggie who kindly posted on day 4. Learn the details of my next possible adventure and how the brave companions helped me to prepare for it. Also, due to Kendra's great advice, I create and share my own personal mission statement and reveal my biggest life dream. Cheryl supports our listener from Rhode Island and then we have a great comment conversation about money and self-worth. Dawny bravely shares her less than happy feelings on the bravery hotline and new listener, Brave Companion Isabel helps me discover what's really under my feeling fat.
Thanks to Brave Companion Jenny, I was interviewed by comedian, Paul Gilmartin for his very successful podcast, The Mental Illness Happy Hour. I spill how it all went down and have a special gratitude surprise for Jenny. Thanks too to Garden Girl KP who kindly reviewed this show on her weight maintenance blog and who gave the show a 5 star review on iTunes. I ponder letting go of assumptions, welcome new listener Sofia from Sweden who reaches out via FB, and place new listener Amy on the Bravery Report for not only contacting me via the contact form, but for stepping up and calling the bravery hotline immediately after a compulsive eating experience to talk it through with us vs. beating herself up. Brava Amy! Last, but not least, Brave Companion, Dawny makes show history by being the FIRST BC to call for Foolish Fun. Thanks too to more brave companions who have shown their support to the show financially.
I make a shocking decision about what to let go of today! A new way to measure progress is rolled out. Thanks to listeners for supporting the show on iTunes, Stitcher, and TuneIn radio. Special thanks to Cheryl, Sue, and Karen for posting comments on Alen's blogs after our interview. Dawny is on the bravery report for calling the bravery hotline with an audio question for Alen and my next interview. I answer part of the question now and Alen weighs in via email until we can address the topics more in depth in future. I'm pleased and humbled that a new listener and brave companion from Rhode Island calls the bravery hotline to share her story and we are the very first people to ever hear her thoughts about her eating struggles. I'm also floored that a Brave Companion actually sent me $5.00 via my new button and I dig deep on what that brings up in me and why. More thoughts and feedback about the scale and a key comment from Kendra via Facebook. I share more about my long held dream of trying voice acting and how my social meeting with actual voice actors went. Helen supports Gracie with a kind comment and I use this to send my own good wishes to Gracie.
I surprisingly recognize how I've been holding on to an impossible dream version of myself and how I need to let that go to appreciate the Laurie in the here and now. Shout-outs to Sue and Sandy for supporting Crystal on her brave post on the 'Who are the Brave Companions page', thank you to Amazon shoppers in the UK and US. I mention another way to support the podcast financially. Welcome to new listeners Dawny from Spokane and Garden Girl KP who found us via Alen's interview. More reactions from brave companions about the interview and I list why I'm grateful it happened. Alen asks the brave companions for input on our next interview. I get the comments and thoughts from brave companions, old and new, that I asked for about my scale struggle. I ponder the benefits of intuitive exercise.
When Alen Standish emailed me that our interview was live, I couldn't wait to grab my hiking boots and give his show a listen. At the top of the mountain I record my reactions and then ponder the power the scale still has over me!
I ponder how we can easily fall prey to self-imposed rules, even when we are trying to practice intuitive eating. New brave companion, Helen, supports another listener and shares some of her own story. Stephanie from Germany asks a compelling question about how trying to stop a binge might make a binge compulsion worse. Cheryl and Sue have an interesting comment conversation about letting go of our food compulsion identities. Shout-outs to Canadian iTunes listeners for a new record, Alen Standish for his help in our last show, and to new Stitcher listeners who've added Compulsive Overeating Diary to their playlists.
Despite being plagued by flies on top of the mountain, I have an epic realization about my compulsive eating identity. Shout-outs to Helen for her bravery and to Misha from Canada for a kind iTunes review. Cheryl poses a question to us in response to my Miracle Plate blog post. Is it possible to have fun without eating? Stéfanie from Quebec, Stephanie from Germany and I have a comment discussion about intuitive exercise and just how dependent on gadgets we are to tell us how we're doing. I wonder if anyone will EVER want to have Foolish Fun, and Alen Standish, from the Progress Not Perfection podcast, is a surprise guest expert during Stéfanie’s Secret Topic.
Stéfanie and Sue are on the bravery report for taking a leap of faith and trying 10 days without the scale. Sadly, I'm still not ready. On the positive side, my bike riding and hiking have been fantastic due to feeding myself enough food to support these activities. Who knew that fitness could actually feel fun? Serving sizes take on a new meaning with my intuitive eating practice. Shout-outs to new Facebook poster and brave companion, Lucy, to my first Amazon.com shopper, and to the 10 brave companions who have me on their Stitcher playlists.
That darn scale, I still can't keep myself off of it every morning! How can I get over this bad habit? The truth about my former weight maintenance methods and how intuitive eating differs. Shout-outs to Alen Standish for his kindness in providing me a quick way to get ALL countries' iTunes reviews and to Cheryl for giving Alen's show a try and for posting a comment to him. Why I so appreciate how you brave companions support me and each other. Hello from new brave companion Helen, brava to brave companion Monica from Australia for stepping up to say hi to us, and we hear from one of the original brave companions, Crystal, who gets back in touch and highly deserves her place on today's bravery report! More about money and my adventures with Amazon. Finally, Insomnia drives a wedge in my progress and we do an experiment to identify fullness in our tummies and guts.
I take a huge risk and explore what's REALLY under my fear of associating business and money with doing what I love. Control? Lack of assertiveness? Lack of self-worth? Panic? As I think about my career past, I wonder why I can only see my value when I'm doing what I DON'T care about. A warm hello and welcome to new listener and brave companion, Monica from Australia! Please take a minute and post your hellos to her also.
My experience learning intuitive eating features a pissy mood, a pie craving, and the support of good friends. Alen Standish renames his podcast and I explain why that is brave. A hearty welcome to our newest Sparkpeople team member, Zhenya. Our new brave companion, Stephanie, from Germany, is once again on the bravery report and because I face up to some of my biggest fears, I put MYSELF on the bravery report too! Thoughts on how to love the body you have right now. Thanks to Sue, Cheryl, Kendra and Stéfanie for supportive comments.
Stéfanie and Cheryl give me a lot to think about as we discover how Robot Aliens are actually my protectors. I share how I'm finally learning to understand myself through therapy and intuitive eating techniques help me make peace with my body. Lisa from Boston calls the bravery hotline with her book recommendation and I'm thrilled that Stephanie writes me from Germany. I finally discover how to look at all of the international iTunes stores and see the brave companions' reviews in countries outside of the U.S., and we give a big welcome shout-out to our newest listener and brave companion, Tove.
Therapy is tough, so after sharing my experience I lighten the mood by introducing a new feature called Foolish Fun. Hear the song that lets me hold and pet Gracie every morning even though she is a skittish and touch-adverse kitty. Cheryl comments on Day 53. Shout-outs to Debcaf2 for her 5-star review on iTunes and to Michelle once again for her excellent comment on Day 43 about Binge Extinction techniques.
Emotions run wild as I learn how to face life without numbing it with diets and bingeing. Looking for a photo from my childhood inspires a blog post about reintergrating both pain and joy that I've blocked out. I ponder finding a therapist to help me. New brave companion Millie asks if it seems odd to wish her sisters would all join her on her journey so they could be learning together. Cheryl, Stéfanie and I comment. We end with Stéfanie's Secret Topic 2. What will come to mind as I hear Stéfanie's newest Secret Topic at the same time as you do?
I emerge from a depressive Blue Mood by sharing my feelings via blog post and explain why bike riding is a good thing to combat depression. I'm shocked by an urge to go back to calorie counting after my turbulent emotions and examine why in the end, I don't feel that is the best way for me to go. I muse about learning to use the intuitive eating movement's hunger scale. I share my fears and decide to give up the appearance of control over the brave companions listening and commenting habits. Also featured, Taryn Brumfitt's Kickstarter campaign to fund a documentary about body acceptance, Amanda Trusty's awesome video art expressing her warrior-like dance claiming her own body acceptance as well as her newest video showing her fan's own body acceptance. Shout-outs to new listener, Janet, and comments from Sue, Cheryl, Stéfanie and Michelle McK
A total random, bonus episode as my compulsive brain tortures me during the lull between events. I take to the park to talk it out and think it through. How can I learn to consider NOT considering? Also, after emailing with Stefano and reading the news of today, I get mad about people feeling free to comment on other people's size. Thanks to Cheryl, Sue and Stéfanie for their good wishes on episode 50.
I'm filled with awe and gratitude as I exchange my cane for hiking poles once again and ascend my beloved mountain to celebrate the 50th episode of Compulsive Overeating Diary. I reminisce about where I began on this experiment and ponder where I'm going. I think about all of the blessings that have come my way from interacting with you, the brave companions. Cheryl calls the bravery hotline to support Brandi and earns her spot on today's Bravery Report. A shout-out to new listener and brave companion, Maria from the UK, comments from Michelle, Stéfanie and Cheryl and an update about Alva the English teacher from France. Another big thank-you to Josh Woodward for his inspiring song, I'm letting go.
I muse on the Yin-yang of surprises as I search for a new Zen Spot at my local park. Stéfanie’s Secret Topic is successfully launched! Shout-outs to my FB brave companions for their encouragement, to Jodi for her thoughtful comment about people pleasing, and to Alva from France who tells me a surprising reason she values my first podcast show, Daily Adventure Tales.
My day starts out fantastically then dives down into challenges, that in the past, would have sent me headfirst into a bag of chips. Discover how I finally learn to deal with frustration and start to take events outside of my control in stride. Hear new listener and brave companion, Brandi, tell her story and current feelings on the bravery hotline. Shout-outs to new listener Millie and to Michelle Mc and Cheryl for their comments about people pleasing and to Jenny for being instrumental in my getting a new opportunity. Taste a sample of an upcoming feature by brave companion Stéfanie, Mark and me, as we work out our technical difficulties.
Find out what happened after last episode's epic story of me saying 'No'. I ponder different flavors and reasons for saying 'Yes". Shout-outs to new listener and brave companion Brandi and to Michelle Mc who, like many of you, felt bad that I felt bad and sent me an encouraging comment and explained a good method for avoiding binges called HALT
I discover the painful difference between Robot Alien distraction and true grief. I then struggle to relate the powerful, meaningful event that taught me this without telling actual details, because it involves people currently in my life. I muse too on the nature of friendship and relationships. I'm delighted to wish Brave Companion Stefano a Happy 46th Birthday on day 46! Also good wishes for Cheryl's birthday that was yesterday. Comments and thoughts by Michelle Mc, Cheryl and Stéfanie. Stéfanie proposes a new feature for the show. Shout-outs for FaceBook supporters and iTunes reviewers.
I take a bonus walk to clear my head. The Alien Robots attack my mind all weekend with self-criticism and visions of chips making my bad back all better. Valiantly, I overcome their taunts thanks to encouragement from Brave Companions Sue, Anne, Jodi, Danielle, Abby, and Janet . I give you an unflinching glimpse into the battle despite fearing to once again, come off as pathetic. As I finally return to walking, -er hobbling, with my cane around the park after my weekend of severe back trouble, I ponder the difference between fact and what those pesky robot aliens have to say. Josh Woodward says, 'Thanks' for supporting his Kickstarter campaign.
A sudden bad back forces me to practice getting over "Why Me?" as I hobble around Descanso Gardens. Michelle McKinney's comment makes me think about "Why me?" striking at parties and how we might nip that feeling in the bud before the Robot Aliens can attack! Long time listener, Michelle shares what it was like to be on the show via the bravery hotline and leaves a detailed comment about Binge Extinction from her ongoing therapy. Shout-outs to new listener, Sunshine and to returning, commenter, Stéfanie from Canada.
Our 20th anniversary trip inspires me to ponder how 'all or nothing' thinking has screwed me in the past and to celebrate our improvement in getting off of that roller coaster. A Whoppin' Big Bravery shout-out goes to Michelle for courageously calling the bravery hotline and thanks to Sue and Cheryl for welcoming new listener, Heather and new Spark People team member, Christina.
An email comment by new listener, Marie, triggers me to ponder the whole topic of being authentic and how that can impact our relationships. Shout-outs also go to Nancy, Sandy and Janet. I recommend a great podcast interview done by Alen Standish, of Quit Binge Eating, with Michelle Cleary that I listened to on my way up the trail. I remind the brave companions that my 20th anniversary is coming up and so the podcast will have a larger gap than usual before the next episode.
Bonus walk and talk! I reflect on the 13 weeks I've been doing this experiment -- the ups, the downs, the lessons this ever winding path has taught me thus far. I update you on my schedule, weight, a great podcast you can listen to, and muse about the nature of cravings and why we need to look to ourselves to feel good in our own skin.
How can we expect to process all of these heavy 'Aha' moments? Also, stories and thoughts about therapy from Sue, Cheryl and me. Shout-outs to new brave companion, Sharon and our third companion named Michelle, Michelle Mckinney. Steven and Abby are recognized on our new bravery report and I thank Jodi for being supportive on Facebook during my massive cleaning project. I read our original Michelle's entire comment about her experience with a therapist who specializes in eating issues.
Chaos is on my mind, triggered by a pair of comments by brave companions, Sandy and Cheryl. I discover one of the reasons I sabotage myself after reading a heartfelt post by Abby followed by a snippet from our brave Michelle about seeking therapy. I tell about our new 'Who are the brave companions?' page on CompulsiveOvereatingDiary.com and share my experience with Tumblr.
It's all about telling our truth and why we feel so gosh darn apologetic. I read an email from Steven who shares his My Fitness Pal ID, a true and brave comment from our newest brave companion, Michelle, and a heartfelt comment from my long-time friend, Cheryl, that triggers my musing at my Upper Zen Spot. Shout-outs too, to Sandy, Cherry, and my Local Brave Companion FB buddy who left a 5-star iTunes review.
Shout-outs to Abby for her fine review on iTunes, Sandy for her brave support of listener, Gracie, and Cheryl, Abby and Sue for joining and participating in our new Spark People Team for Brave Companions. I talk about my new Compulsive Overeating Diary channel on YouTube and my 30 minute video bike ride that you can see there. Finally, a comments conversation between Sue, Cheryl and me sparks me to think how clutter, overspending and overeating might all be related.
On Easter, I think about renewal and other lessons I've learned from my brave companions and from reading the fabulous book, Kendra and Maddy recommended, Eating In the Light of the Moon. Abby's comment wakes me up to gratitude for my husband and shines a light on my perfect perfectionism. I discuss music, old school, and we hear from Kendra herself, via Speakpipe, as she shares a good tip to possibly improve my nutrition.
I lend my cat's name to a private listener who wants our input about how to balance recovering from anorexia with losing weight after some bouts with binge eating in her recovery. I also remember my life and finally discover what I was born to do. Today was a true gift of Grace.
As rebel Laurie, I learn a ton about myself as I share a story about a crummy cat-chore I assigned to myself and how it triggered overeating. Also, emails from brave companions Kendra and Stefano, and highlighted features from compulsiveovereatingdiary.com
From a foggy mountain top, I give you a glimpse inside of my pissy mood from yesterday where I learn a lot about myself from comments left on day 32 by new brave companion, Jerry, and by long term, faithful companion, Sue. I also face one of my biggest fears and sing a song I wrote at age 8.
Despite feeling fantastic after recording episode 31, the Space Alien Robots attack in an epic battle. Learn what happened, and how I claimed at least partial victory due to the tips, you, the brave companions, sent last time. Also, shout-outs to new listener, Steven, and a special birthday surprise for Sandy.
Brave companions Michelle, Janet and Sandy all step up to the plate and give great tips to Maureen, and the rest of us, for dealing with emotions that may drive our eating. Sandy shares on the Bravery Hotline about a sad situation and how she's trying to cope. New listener Sue's comment sparks me to create a segment all about why the scale is not to be trusted. Also featured are other ways to send audio to the podcast and let your voice be heard.
Unexpectedly, a dream of mine comes true, so I unexpectedly record a bonus episode about it, and then, I discuss an equally unexpected food trigger.
Brave Companion, Stéfanie, leaves a wonderful comment on Day 27 that sparks me to discuss why we should not wait for 'perfect' to reach out to others, or to reach out for our dreams. I share my adventure of meeting Listener Sandy in person, and ask all of our brave companions to help support Maureen in her quest to know, 'How do YOU deal with the feelings under compulsive overeating?'
Listener Sandy screws her courage to the sticking place and calls the Bravery Hotline to give us some great tips and thoughts about perfectionism and how to treat ourselves kindly. I keep my promise to post my bikini photo, and this triggers me to share my emotional story about how disappointed I was in this result. Now? I would wear this bikini in public if I looked like this. Expectations can trigger unfounded disappointment and I muse about how we can combat this.
During a fantastic morning hike, I relate my gratitude for episode 26's power to stop my binge. I also wax poetic about the ups and downs of weight, compulsion, and how we might become more accepting and peaceful with our bodies.
Mortified that I mixed up Canadian listener, Kendra, with New Englander listener, Maddy, during last episode's walk in Descanso, I make good on my promise to deliver a sunny walk for winter-bound, Kendra by strolling through the charming shopping district of Montrose, California. Then, struck by my feelings of discomfort over the matter, decide to find a nice, quiet spot to podcast about perfectionism. Instead, you get the ring-side seat to the beginnings of a true binge based in frustration, finished off by how I outsmarted those frackin Robot Aliens this time.
I give winter-bound, listener, Maddy a taste of sunny California by podcasting as I walk around part of Descanso Gardens. I'm also inspired by the story of Maddy and Sandy and read a poignant comment of Maddy's from a past episode. Learn how to sign up for the podcast email list to get your own Alien Robot graphic to print and hang on your fridge.
Feeling insecure, despite my current success, I wander around Descanso Gardens and muse about insecurity, secrecy, magical thinking and try to find ways to get myself back on the emotional track. Shout-out to my new online friend, Shirl!
I have fun kicking robot alien ass a few days post binge by gaining encouragement from Maddy, Shirl, Vanessa, iTunes reviewer, RSeab2007 and by posting pics and photos of my adventures on Instagram and FB. I find a new podcast spot and wonder, 'Why is it SO hard to hear good things about yourself?'
I ponder how the alien robot got through my defense shield the day after a binge. Then I move on from it while taking an emergency stress stroll through the park. Hooray for Ashley, this was her first 5K today!
Listeners Michelle and Ashley send in their stories about shame, victory and moving forward. I sing the happy dance for Ashley's first 5k and I close the podcast with a special song to send sleepy listener, Sara, off to dreamland. Featured is The Manx Lullaby by Slainte
While hiking in a wind storm, I muse about a comment from Ava about money and overeating, then I come clean about my latest compulsive overeating episode and wonder, 'Will y'all still love me when I F-up?'
I decide that my listeners, callers and commenters are my 'Brave Companions". I ponder an idea by new Brave Companion, Gato, about 'What IS the cost of food compulsion and obsession. I have fun letting you know I am open here 24-7 for you. Did you know you can listen to Compulsive Overeating Diary with your TV? I was astounded!
I share why you can't assume body size equals eating issues and discuss how bravery and support can break the debilitating chains of secrecy. Shout-outs to new listeners, Jenny and Ashley, and stats for the top ten countries and states that download Compulsive Overeating Diary.
I share the final results and details of my successful birthday in Vegas where I tried out Plan "Be". New listener, Rafael, posts some questions about what might be behind his overeating. A brave listener writes me about her troubles with sneak eating and bingeing with Girl Scout cookies.
An update on how I'm handling my emotion-charged Vegas birthday trip. What ever happened to my lost microphone? How we can torture ourselves with negative thoughts. Janet calls the Bravery hotline, so I keep my promise and sing a song my father would love. Shout-outs to Ava, Janet and Crystal.
Deeper issues are revealed as I experience life without the mask of food. Shout-outs to new listener, Michelle, and to my new online, buddy, Crystal for posting encouragement after I asked for help dealing with my upcoming birthday trip to Vegas. Also gratitude to Carrie, from the Bitesize Vitality Podcast who took time to email me after we both made New and Noteworthy on Itunes.
Feeling blue, whiney and in need of chips, I head to my favorite spot at Descanso and ask my listeners for help and encouragement. Shout-outs to Heidi from Canada for her tweets and to composer, Josh Woodward for being so gracious and generous with his music. Finally someone calls the Daily Adventure Tales hotline, but will it be enough to start up that podcast again?
Inspired by a comment posted by Crystal, I brave the rainy weather to play with ducks and muse about 'what's under emotional eating?'. I give some tricks to help when confronted by unexpected food and I celebrate bravery with shout-outs to my niece, Katie, a brave international adventurer on her birthday, Cheryl for her blog bravery and a double brava for Crystal, who posted her success on bravery day!
When faced by food temptation do you go right away to plan Binge? Bitch? or Plan "Be"? I hike in front of gathering storm clouds and muse about this new idea. It came to me from a comment typo I made on my friend's blog, and I've been thinking about it ever since. It's also bravery day! I ask all of you to give me a call or a comment and bravely share a bit of your lives. Shout-out to Jodi and Crystal, who have shared a bit already. Thanks for encouraging me! I include all of my main theme, I’m Letting Go, by Josh Woodward from The Simple Life Part 1 at the end of this episode as a bonus.
I struggle up the mountain to my upper Zen place to emotionally pull the plug on my other podcast, Daily Adventure Tales, deal with the internal fall-out, and muse about expectations, disappointments and dealing with the compulsion to cover them with food. Also, I give a shout-out to the supporters of Compulsive Overeating Diary and remember painful times from my past.
Back on the bike after 4 weeks, a live report. Plus dealing with dieting disappointment, losing fat and muscle , and how will you be treating yourself these next 4 weeks? Shout-out to Ava, thanks for encouraging me on Facebook!
I rant and roll about the scary balance between dieting and binge triggers. Damned if you do, Damned if you don't. Is there any hope? I also thank Merc and Tracy for posting iTunes reviews. Wow, I'm so surprised and encouraged to keep on by that.
I wrestle with the unexpected death of my uncle as I journey from the comfort of my hammock back up the mountain to ponder, 'What if today were the last day of my life'?
When my awesome plan to record, Zen-like, from the mountain-top during a hike derails due to technical difficulties, I climb down the mountain and into the comfort of my hammock back home where I muse about exercise bulimia, the nature of binges and how to come back from one.
Today's walk is all about truths we hide from ourselves. What's under the drive to fill our guts with food? I take a hard look at my people pleasing and the resulting rage, my relationships and why I may have kept on re-gaining weight.
Powerful episode today. I dive deep into two key triggers for my food compulsion, indecision and low self-worth. I struggle with a key decision about the future of my podcasts and ruminate over past episodes and whether I can drum up the balls to release them. Finally I bring forth a new podcast hotline dedicated to Compulsive Overeating Diary, 206-350-6445
Pathetic is the new cool. At least that's what I tell myself as I struggle with my feelings as I huff around the local park and wonder if I'm whistling in the dark with my podcasts.
I overcome an overwhelming compulsion to weasel out of my exercise class and ponder what's under my weaseling-out instinct. Then I attempt to visit Trader Joe's while hungry. Will I sabotage myself or stick to my plan? Also, iTunes comes through and my husband surprises me in an emotional way.
The show opens with the soothing sound of chimes and then nosedives into a situation that would usually have me scrambling for the chips. I share what compulsive overeating feels like, my thoughts on addiction, and how choosing to eat a bag of chips can actually be a positive step.
I launch a new podcast that's an intimate look inside my lifelong battle with compulsive eating and binge eating disorder. I offer up two first steps that help me deal with compulsive eating when it roars back into my life.