Dweet Fraid: Recent Episodes
Imani S. Maxwell
It is about my life as a young adult in this era who has ambitions to own successful businesses, do a PhD in Clinical Neuropsychology, own a ranch, travel the world and make a shit ton of memories with amazing souls. I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder Type 1 and have since become an advocate for mental health awareness. I share my experiences and how I cope and thrive with said.
This episode personifies Mania. It is a reading of a part of a mini book series I am working on titled the same as episode title. I hope it gives an insight into what mania often looks like. I promise it’s not all “crazy”
This piece was written when I first experienced winter in Canada. I loved watching how the trees changed from Summer to Fall to Winter. It was beautiful and it taught me something valuable which I tried to express in this piece. It taught me that sometimes we have to let go of things of the past that may weigh us down in our new season and that that undressing can be as beautiful as it is necessary. And most importantly, that it is ok.
A reading of blog post titled same. It speaks of the conflicting emotions I felt embarking on a new relationship with an old friend.
Reading of my blog post. It’s an attempt to air my current thoughts on complacency, wanting a baby and my dating habits. I’m a mess ok 😄 and I like it 😌 well, most times.
A reflection on the lessons I learnt as I introspected on my 22nd Birthday. “Everyone is just trying to be happy, give people a break”
A reading of “If this is Goodbye” written to me by a dear friend and lover. It’s the kind of love that’s magnetic and strong and pure. The “Hancock” kind of love; fatal attraction...
Written when I was waiting on my admission letter to grad school. I was anxious and just musing on my relationships at the time; friendships and romantic and thinking out loud about my wild side 😜
This is a reading of my blog post titled as same. I wrote this over a year ago. It speaks on my journey thus far and what I believe about dreams and goals. At the end of the reading, I elaborated a bit on my tag line and the hashtags I always use - #dweetfraid #faithit #chiselon
It is a reading of a blog post titled the same as episode title. I speak on my current relationship status. The fact that I don’t even know if it is a relationship 😄
This is a reading of my blog post titled as episode title. It is an argument with self about how recently my actions too often contradict my words.
A reading of my blog post titled as the episode title. I speak on 2 of the propositions I made this year to 2 male friends. Apparently it’s a thing I do. Sometimes (Most times 😄) I think I am among God’s greatest gifts to the universe so why not right?? Lol. I’m sure there are underlying psychological reasons at play here which I try to dissect in this piece as well as talk about how I am moving forward.
This is a reading of my blog post titled as same. It’s a short dialogue with Depression. This is one of the many ways I fight daily...with self. This is what I refer to as talking back to the voice(s) and the same is depicted in my book - Depression, Anxiety & Mania: Talking Back to the Voice(s)
This is a reading of my blog post titled as same. I speak on how all things live in seasons. As someone living with a mental illness and more specifically Bipolar Disorder Type 1 everything I do in life ever since I became public about my diagnoses is scrutinized under the lens of my illness. I write to say that the things I experience are experienced to some extent by all humans; sadness, anger, joy, pain etc. The difference with people like me and others is that we experience all these shifts in mood and personality on the extreme ends. On a spectrum, I may always be on the extreme end. I am mindful of that and I commit to myself in this piece to be ready for all “seasons” especially the impending one. I promise to stay; to stay true to myself and my goals. To me, that it what it means to be a moon child; affected by elements beyond my immediate control.
A reading of my blog post titled as the episode title. I speak on my introspection of my habits in the last quarter of 2018. I highlighted some of the things I wasn’t being very responsible with and spoke on some of the better habits my younger self had that I will be readopting as I strive to balance while preserving the beautiful chaos of my mind’s mind.
A reading of my blog post titled “Dear Santa”. It is my letter to Santa Claus; the magical white fat guy with a big white beard that lives in the North Pole with his elves (tiny helpers) and magic flying reindeers. The story is that they make gifts for all the kids (only in North America) lol. And deliver them on Christmas Eve by flying in the sky on a magic sled driven my his reindeers and he lands on rooftops, and slides down chimneys. The ideology has some biases which I speak on in my piece.
It’s about making your pain your muse, whatever that pain is. Make it into art. Use it to inspire your life. Make it your “Why?” There are so many beautiful things that were created from storms. Don’t be a victim be a victor.
A reading of a blog post I made on December 7, 2018. It speaks about how I exist and interact with this world and “other worlds”. I write about how I nurture my selves and ground myself to the here and now. It speaks about how all things live in seasons and what I felt my season was
A reading of a piece I wrote on my blog. It is about my internal struggle with anchoring my wandering mind in this reality. This one that I have a business, a career, family, friends, a blog, a Podcast...you get it right?
A reading of a piece I posted on my blog. It speaks on how I felt laying in bed for 10hrs while I had pressing “work” to do. Had I been home I would have been berated for being lazy and even though I wasn’t home; I’d heard it too many times to forget. I felt lazy. Well, don’t think we don’t feel the way you think. Most mentally ill persons having depressive bouts beat themselves up way more than you can imagine. Help us up, speak life into us. Be kind with your words...please.
A reading of my blog post on December 10, 2018 on www.faith2040.me. It speaks about some lessons I learnt on my 23rd journey around the sun. As you read/listen I hope if even one line of my self musing can be of some benefit to you. #Dweetfraid #chiselon #faithit
This is a reading of my latest blog post entitled as the Episode title. Like most if not all of my writings; this is my self talk on paper, on screen and voiced.
This episode talks about how Depression more often than not is accompanied by Anxiety and it talks about what Anxiety might look like. As was done with Depression, Anxiety is personified in some parts of the reading.
This is the first few pages of the book I am currently working on titled as the episode title. In this episode I talk about Depression. I will be sharing as I write. The aim is to personify Depression, Anxiety and Mania and give others an idea of what it feels and looks like living with either of the three or any combination of them. I talk about my real life experiences as I have first hand experiences with all three on a daily basis. I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder Type 1. I share how they present, how I cope and what you can do to support someone living with Depression, Anxiety and or Mania.