My Own Mama: Recent Episodes
Jasmine Apap
Here I vlog about the transformative adventure I took to Texas, and the compass that guided me home - through becoming My Own Mama.
"This can never happen again."
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'It can only go up from here, I thought.'
Xx
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'I felt sick to my stomach. The only thing worse than filling in that blank, was not.'
Xx
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Are you sure you wanna know?
Xx
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'It's going to be alright.'
Xx
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Mamas,
This is the last episode for a year <3
I love you, I'm with you.
Hang in there.
It might just work together for good.
I pray that for you.
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Mamas,
A message after striving: surrender
Jassy
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Well mamas,
If I had it in me I'd be chopping a lot more. This is more raw version of this episode, but if I don't post it now I never will.
Love,
Jas
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Mamas,
I experienced a new form of refreshment that I wanted to pass along this week.
Xo
Jassy
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Ok Mamas,
Let's get real. I was unsure of sharing this story, but. I just want to reiterate that no matter how far off the deep end you've gone, there will always be loving arms to catch you, if you decide to surrender to them.
Xoxoxoxox
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Mamas,
I take you through an instance where I stared one of my own demons in the face, and dissolved it with love. One battle at a time.
Jassy
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Mamas,
Call it premonition, but I believe this bright future is coming soon.
Jassy
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Bare with me, I swear a lot in this episode.. Gettin fired up!
My question stands: Why do we need to wait for an assault before we act protectively?
Xxx
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When an unsolvable puzzle gets SOLVED!
Xoxoxo
Jassy
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Mamas,
We be hurdlin' like an athlete with all these obstacles.
If you wanna get deep with me, here's the latest writing piece:
Lead me: https://myownmama.com/lead-me/
Jassy
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We're Texas-bound, mamas! Yeehaw!
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Mamassss
Let's trust, surrender, be still, let go, cease striving... and just be.
Jassy
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Mamasssss,
Get hot for some goal setting for the year.
Yeehaw!
Jassy
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Merry Christmas Mamas, and happy final mama Monday of 2023. What better way to end than to summarize the year, and see how much can change in such a short period.
Jassy
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Mamasssss,
Courage > recklessness
imho
Jassy
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Enjoy this sweet nugget.
Jassy
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Mamas,
Meet the woman who guided mine and Whitney's mindfulness course at https://gentlydownthestream.ca/. She is "no woo woo" yet simultaneously a spiritual guide in my life.
Thanks for being here and joining in on our life chat <3
Jassy
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Mamassssss,
Ironically, I need to zip my lips >.<
Jassy
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Mamassssss,
Less bad > better = ... ?
Jassy
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Hey Mamas,
I interrupt my own trajectory with this thought...
Hm.
Jassy
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Hi Mamas,
Here's a new way to connect to joy I've been discovering this week.
Jasmine
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Mamas,
Here is an offering to allow peace to accompany you on your daily list of activities.
Jassy
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Mamas,
It's officially been a year of podcasting; interesting that I chatted about a soft place to land, which has gotten me through the hardships of this past year. Life's hard enough, how can we soften into the present for ourselves?
Xo
Jassy
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Why is it that asking for help is the hardest thing sometimes, when ironically we feel good when someone trusts us enough to ask us for help?
Xxoo
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For the one who is broken
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Hey Mamas,
Time to ground into the grind. I share a mindfulness technique to help with this that my therapist taught me years ago.
Xoxo
Jassy
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Hey Mamas,
Hop along this ride in search for a vehicle, and take the Big 5 and Myers Brigg's personality tests with me.
XX,
Jassy
1) 30 day free Headspace pass: https://www.headspace.com/referral/z6jb3?slug=e46c2d&audio=false
2) Big 5 Personality Test: https://bigfive-test.com/
3) Myers Briggs Personality Test: https://www.16personalities.com/free-personality-test
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Mamas,
Let's chat about some life decisions:
Where to live
What to drive
Where to stay in Texas
And what direction to go in for work...
Nbd.
- Jas
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Mamasssssssss
We're keeping it moving to appreciate rest.
Xoxo
Jassy
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Hey mamas,
Let's get down to business (to defeat the huns)! I've talked to you about my routine as far as self care goes, but I also love checking in on all of these areas to boost my energy levels for the day and the week.
- How are you feeling...
Physically
Mentally
Emotionally
Spiritually
Socially
Sexually
and Financially
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What would you recommend a loved one feeling the same way could do to ease their process...
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And what's one baby step you can do to take your own advice in order to regain or maintain calm in that area?
Xoxox
Jassy
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Why wait to date? Let's talk.
Jassy
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Dear 'Chase',
I'm sorry I'm an idiot and got myself fired. You deserve better. You've got a team of people behind you who can all support you in different ways. I played my part the best way I knew how, and I pray it was enough. Now I'm rooting for you from afar. I want to see you get that job, graduate school, and go to college for welding or mechanics or aviation or whatever your heart desires. You can do it. Just don't be an idiot like me. Keep your mouth shut when you need to. Silence speaks too, and listening doesn't mean agreeing. You got this, and I'm proud of you no matter what. I'll always be in your corner.
- Jas
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Hey you,
We are mamas and daddies up in here today! We need both don't we? Chat with me as I work through my own private family therapy session in my mind and my heart.
Much love,
Jassy
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Hey Mamas,
Chat with me about an experience with a creeper on the beach, a creeper at work, a creeper as a child, and a weirdo at the club. We have the power to ward off all this negative bullshit simply with the power of silence.
Hope I didn't offend too much on this one.
Jassy
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Hey Mamas,
Here's the tool I use to help me distinguish whether something is wrong for me, or right and I'm just scared of it. The body never lies. I learned this trick from Michelle Chalfant, and it hasn't failed me yet!
Jassy
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The Adult Chair Podcast where I learned this technique: https://open.spotify.com/show/4FzdV2nB2BZlywCxowM1Xw
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Hey Mamas,
Welcome to my weekly diary.
Yours Truly,
Jas
PS. Don't try to give a baby bird water like I thought, they can get pneumonia <3
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Mamas,
My traumatizing training came to life. I share the story of my meeting with the little boy I've been paired with through work, who we'll call X. Let my broken heart not close, not shatter, but open even more.
Jasmine
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Mamas,
Chuck has inspired many a work-out that I was not in the mood for since our conversation. It just goes to show the power of just being yourself, trying your best, and getting back up when you get knocked down. Get pumped for this conversation.
Jas
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Hey Mamas,
Plot twist on this week's episode. My mom's episode will either be next week or never!! But something special happened this week that burst my perspective open... Also I hope you sang this title in your head ;)
Thank you for being here,
Jassy
PS. I got my nails done and they look fab hehehe
Xoxox
Mamas,
How lucky am I to call this man father? A lot of us have father wounds and daddy issues, and my hope is that just by listening in on a nourishing conversation, we can explore the meaning of healthy fatherhood together.
Love you lots,
Jassy
For the Mamas with babies!!
This one's for you. I used to love snuggling up with my dad and reading books, and it's his mutual love of these moments that fuelled him to create an entire children's book series.
Here's book one!
Find the rest of the series here:
https://www.amazon.ca/s?k=the+adventures+of+left+hand+island&i=stripbooks&crid=3A5VAE47Q9AKF&sprefix=the+adventures+of+left+hand+island%2Cstripbooks%2C105&ref=nb_sb_noss
Hey Mamas,
Join in for a family chat about donating time, effort, and money to help others. Plus, some bonus life and marriage advice to boot.
Jassy
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I love my Nunna, Mamas.
She lights me up, so I hope you get lit up vicariously by this tenacious, fierce, generous, loyal, dedicated woman who I am honoured to have leading my bloodline.
Xoxo
Jassy
Mamas,
It's an unbelievable situation... but it's time to shed that dark scorpio eclipse, and come into taurus new moon abundance. I feel lighter, and free as a bird, even in the most unlikely of circumstances.
You are loved, Mamas. And divinely cared for.
Jassy
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Happy Mother's Day Mamas!
I hope you are going extra easy on yourself this Monday, being that you are officially a Mama regardless if you have babies or not ;) ;) Treat yoself!
I can't help but smile as I think about my conversation with this lovely, gentle, humble, healing soul. Stay tuned for her prayer for each of us at the end. It was just what I needed this week. I got carried away in a monologue to start, hehe, but our beautiful conversation starts at (21:22).
Love always,
Jassy
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Notes:
Vicky & Phil's website: https://www.resilientmarriageretreat.com/about-me
Option to tune into Gateway service at 9:15 or 11:15 CDT (10:15 and 12:15 EST):
https://gatewaychurchaustin.online.church/
Mamas,
I'm not gonna lie Haley is the first pastor I've ever met who's not a man! We hit it off at church, and being the bold, brave woman she is, Haley agreed to record our first get-to-know-you-chat over bubble tea. Treat yoself to one too and come join in. (We recommend taro flavour!) ;)
Jassy
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Mamas,
You've been with me this whole ride, but this episode I break down the journey from start to finish and wrap it all up in a neat bow. Thank you for being here with me... This was a fun one to splice and create.
Much love,
Jassy
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Notes:
Aisha instagram - https://www.instagram.com/aisha_ecasia/
Christian Schaeffer - https://www.youtube.com/@ChristianSchaffer
Isabel Paige - https://www.youtube.com/@isabel_paige
Michelle Chalfant - https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-adult-chair/id941317634
Mamas,
I have wanted to share this with you for a while, but it finally feels like the right time upon exiting the big and bold state of Texas. I don't want to picket; I just want to share my story. You are not alone, and we are stronger together.
Jasmine
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Mamas,
Meet my powerhouse roommate: Kristi. I could listen to her southern drawl all day, and I've spent many hours doing just that. She let me record one of our chats where we talk about finding The One, motherhood, and she vulnerably opens up about traumatic experiences, including an abortion. She will stop at nothing to support women however she can, and I'm all for it.
Thanks for being here with us,
Jassy
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Mamas,
Join me as I get to chat with this power couple in the great outdoors, who vulnerably share their experience with mental health, overcoming adversity, and what self care looks like for each of them. And, yes, I get to hear my first male perspective of what being My Own Mama means to him!
Thank you for being here,
Jassy
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Mamas,
Let the roommate series continue with Wendy. My favourite quality about this remarkable woman is her balance of hard-won resilience, and her playfulness in life. There are few people in the world like her. My heart is happy we have connected in the here and now, and that she is strong enough to share the work that she's done with her trauma and recovery.
Strong advisory of disturbing and graphic content.
Thanks for being here.
Jasmine
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Notes:
Celebrate Recovery: https://www.celebraterecovery.com/
Hey Mamas,
Meet my new roommate, Elizabeth, who opens up about her story of finding loving freedom in spite of adversity, abuse, loss, toxicity and death. She shares some of her beautiful writings on these topics while we take the time to get to know each other. Sometimes a spark happens out of nowhere, and ya just gotta go with it.
Xoxo,
Jassy
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Notes:
Rupi Kaur's website: https://rupikaur.com/
Author of Milk & Honey and The Sun & her Flowers and more.
Dear Mamas,
I randomly decided to record this reading, and I'm glad I did. I've replayed it at times, and hear different nuggets of truth each time. I hope something resonates for you, too. We're in this together, after all.
Love,
Jasmine
"I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you. I love you."
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Ho'oponopono prayer with Dora Kamau
Aisha Ecasia
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Mamas,
Get nerdy with me about one of my favourite topics, the only one I wanted to pursue post-secondary: Psychology! I break down some of the myths in the program itself, as well as Bowlby's Attachment Theory, which I have mentioned a time or two here. I also go into the Four Agreements (finally!) and how each one changed my life from the inside out. I'm calling myself on some of my own bullshit, Mamas. Thanks for being here for it ;)
Xoxo,
Jassy
Notes:
Attachment Style Quiz - also, please note that we all have parts of all of these styles within us, especially depending on the person or situation we are engaging with! I wish I had thought of this while recording, lol.
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Secure
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Anxious-Ambivalent
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Avoidant
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Disorganized (yay!)
The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz
1) Be impeccable with your word
2) Don't take anything personally
3) Don't make assumptions
4) Do your best
(4.5 - Break all other agreements)
Ep 264: Why Codependency is Controlling and How to Heal it - podcast by Michelle Chalfant from The Adult Chair
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Hey Mamas!
Get hot for this episode, where Marissa and I have life chats about sexy photos, relationships, confidence, comparison, and taking radical accountability for our own bullshit. This woman is a soul sister for sure.
Love y'all,
Jassy
Notes:
www.myownmama.com
Instagram: @myownmama
YouTube
Marissa:
www.ourhavenstudios.com
Instagram: @our.haven.studios & @marissalaurenx
Email: marissa@ourhavenstudios.com
Well Mamas,
Let's add a little humour to it all shall we? Let's look at the facts... When it comes to 'happily ever after' in the four major areas: job, money, home, and love - I am a long way off. However, I have a lot of blessings to savour in the meantime while I build the life I want. Namely, this beautiful community, my precious friendships, family, and ultimately: my freedom! I can dive into my creativity and my relationship with God (Love) while I figure my shit out.
We got this,
Jas
Notes:
www.myownmama.com
YouTube
Insta: @myownmama
Eat Pray #FML Gabrielle Stone*** not Bernstein (Gabrielle Bernstein is another author, though!)
Gateway Church Service Link:
Live Sundays @ 9:15 & 11:15 Texas time/ 10:15 & 12:15 Ontario time
Mamas!
We got Sabrina Pougnet in the house! Her and her husband Andrew have over 200k followers on Instagram, 1 MILLION on YouTube (That's right, she's got the golden plaque now), and 2 million on TikTok. If anyone knows how to face the fear of showing up vulnerably and face criticism head on, it's her. We chat all about the process of going viral, what ‘happily ever after’ has looked like since, her secret nose job, and social media how-tos.
Hope you enjoy it as much as I did,
Jas
Notes:
@aspenackley on TikTok, YouTube, Instagram, & Pinterest
www.aspenackley.com
'I got a nose job in secret and vlogged the process' video by @aspenackley
The Four Agreements by don Miguel Ruiz
Miss Americana Taylor Swift documentary on Netflix
The Stories We Tell: Every Piece of Your Story Matters by Joanna Gaines
The Adam Project TV series starring Ryan Reynolds
And her red carpet photo with him!
www.myownmama.com
Mamas,
This is a very different style of episode for me and I am here for it. This is a side to me you may not know... My favourite celebrity couple, the only one I care about, are going through a potential break up, and boy oh boy can I relate. Sit with me as I project all my Twin Flame experience onto their relationship. The similarities feel uncanny to me. Let's have some fun with this one.
Jassy
Notes:
@MachineGunKelly
@MeganFox (currently deleted)
Life in Pink on Hulu - MGK Documentary
Forever My Girl movie, based on the novel by Nicholas Sparks
Hey Mamas, Let me fill you in on travel trailer remodel detes, and my healing heart.
Thanks for being here with me.
Xo,
Jassy
www.myownmama.com
P.S. If you are one of the real ones who gets automatic downloaded episodes I am SO sorry for the jump scare in version 1 right after the trailer.... LOL. Technical difficulties once again. I swear I am going to figure this shit out. It has now been corrected. Love you!
Mamas,
Here she is: the amazing Amanda Welton - certified life/business/anxiety somatic coach, breath work facilitator, and creator of Lavender Tusk - who led me through my breath work break-through from Episode 3, and who has helped support me during this challenging period in my life through her various offerings. I finally get to pick HER brain and let me tell you, she is a fascinating individual.
To start, she was gracious enough to lead us through what a cacao ceremony looks like (a first for me!) in order to set a loving intention for our conversation. Then we jump right into a heart-to-heart about body image, shame hangovers, bending the rules for social justice, money, toxic relationships, narcissism and enabling, substance use, mental health, and abuse. We laugh, we cry; this conversation was just pure magic, so get cozy and come join us.
I love y’all,
Jassy
Contact:
You can follow Amanda on Facebook & Instagram here <--
Website: www.lavendertusk.com
Email: hello@lavendertusk.com
Offerings at Lavender Tusk:
- Somatic Coaching (Life, business, and/or anxiety)
- Breathwork session
Upcoming Events:
- Studio Grand Opening (Hamilton, ON) - March 5th, 2023
- Holistic Healing Retreat (Brantford, ON) - April 16th, 2023
Notes:
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Finding Feathers Crystal energy healing
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Caroline Watters
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The 5 Love Languages
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The 4 Attachment Styles
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The Power of Now: A Guide to Spiritual Enlightenment by Eckhart Tolle
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The Body Keeps the Score by Bessel Van Der Kolk
Bonus:
There was so much content I had to cutout this little excerpt Amanda mentioned about leading by example:
- 6:00 Ted Talk "Leading with Lollipops" by Drew Dudley
Hey Mamas,
It’s not everyday you get to have a conversation with a psychic - the very one who turned your life upside down less than a year ago at that! We address that right off the bat, and dive into hot topics like sun signs, moon signs, rising signs, Saturn returns, shadow work, the upcoming year, and each of the 12 astrological signs (time stamped below). We even talk about triggers, relationships, and codependency.
Thank you for being here Mamas,
I appreciate you, always.
Jasmine <3
P.S. If you're one of the real ones who listened within the first 24 hours you will have noticed a couple glitches. So sorry for this, I am learning and growing, and have uploaded the corrected version! Thanks for sticking by me Mamas. Xoxo
Notes:
Look up your sun, moon, and rising sign: https://www.costarastrology.com/natal-chart/
- Book with Aisha to understand what it all means: www.aishaecasia.com (Knock 28% off with the code MYOWNMAMA)
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“Speak the rude truth in all ways” - Ralph Waldo Emerson
“Telling the truth is a kindness, even if it makes people uncomfortable. Not telling the truth is an unkindness, even if it makes people comfortable.” Dr. Brene Brown
The 12 Zodiacs:
Aries (46:19)
Taurus (47:28)
Gemini (48:30)
Cancer (49:09)
Leo: (49:48)
Virgo (50:32)
Libra (52:37)
Scorpio (55:45)
Sagittarius: (59:40)
Capricorn (1:04:34)
Aquarius: (1:07:45)
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Mamas,
When I first recorded Episode 14, I was nowhere near ready to share. I ended up confiding in a few friends which gave me courage to at least broach the subject, but something was still weighing heavy on my heart. Because I intend to maintain a healthy relationship with my mother, I knew what I needed to do: confront her about the truth of my experience, and let her know I would be sharing it publicly. I did not ask permission, Mamas. My story is my own to share, but I didn't want her to hear about this through any medium other than through me directly. Here's how it went.
Thanks for being with me through it all, Mamas.
Jasmine
Mamas,
Thank you for holding space for this one. I talk a lot slower here because it is extremely difficult to verbalize and admit to myself and others. However, I believe my experience is more common than I ever realized, simply because of human nature. None of us escape intergenerational trauma. Look at medieval times. Rape, war, and torture were the norm, and we all come from that history. This is a special time of life where we can afford the luxury to take some space, and heal and transmute our wounds by sharing our stories in a collective space. I can share my deep, dark, dirty secrets, and we can shine light in the places that were kept dark for so, so long. You may not have had the exact same experiences as me growing up, but I know you have endured similar emotions - helplessness, hopelessness, revulsion, disgust, terror, shame, confusion - and I want you to know I am with you. No more gaslighting ourselves, Mamas, or allowing it from others. You feel how you feel for a reason; and we are stronger together.
Here is the truth behind My Own Mama: I learned to be my own mama because mine hurt me.
Thank you for being here with me.
Jasmine
P.S. If the title wasn't warning enough, be advised about sexually traumatic and disturbing content.
Notes:
- May I Share My Sorrow by Jasmine Apap
- Healed By Love documentary by Matthew Kahn
- Green Lights by Matthew McConaughey
- Free Oracle Reading with me
- Inside Out by Disney's Pixar
Mamas,
You have come to know and love our dear Christopher, too, who was my Guardian Angel during one of my biggest life challenges. It's hard to believe this is the new reality, but we don't always get to keep our soul mates. Listen in on the full story here, as I bare my heart to our Whitney girl. Make yourself a tea and come join the life chats for this one. Thank you for being here with me.
Love always,
Jassy
Notes:
- Thriving After a Breakup with Dorothy AB Johnson podcast by The Life Coach School Podcast with Brooke Castillo
- Foreboding - by (ME) Jasmine Apap at www.myownmama.com
- Another Blow - by Jasmine Apap at www.myownmama.com
- Brida by Paulo Coelho
Mamas,
In my mama-ception, I happened to finally be ready to endure editing episode 8 (about Creeperville) because this episode was happening in real time. This was the light at the end of the tunnel. I achieved my goal of making connections and an investment in Texas, which I liken to the best properties in Monopoly (Yes, there is a right answer to this!). But every rose has its thorn, and by the end of this process I receive a shocking blow that I did not see coming. Still, the meant-to-be way that I have danced with the Universe has me feeling like little Santiago in Paulo Coehlo's book The Alchemist. Like him, I've had my ass handed to me, but landed on the treasure I was looking for all along.
Thank you for being here with me,
I love y'all.
Jassy
Notes:
- Transform Hardship, Unleash Your Superpower And Thrive With Amberly Lago - The Adult Chair podcast episode
- Grit Scale - measurement by Angela Duckworth
- Song is In Faith by Emorie
Hey Mamas!
Meet my Naturopath, Dr. Alison Gottschalk (ND), who was gracious enough to essentially provide a free naturopath session for all of us by letting me pick her brain for over an hour! She is a wellspring of knowledge and we discuss all things hormones, sugar, supplements, and telltale signs you may be ready to support your health. And remember, the reason we invest in ourselves is to show up better for the people we love. So do something for you today, Mamas. Baby steps. You can start here, by joining in on our conversation.
Notes:
The one and only @Dr. Alison Gottschalk (ND) (AKA: Meredith Grey IRL) - Follow her on Instagram for free tips. DM her to book a session.
- My Cycle - The free app I use to track my cycle
- Sugar... It's Not So Sweet | Calgary Avansino | TEDx
- Sugar Is Not A Treat | Jody Stanislaw | TEDx
- @glucosegoddess
- How To Be a Glucose Goddess: The Life-Changing Power of Balancing Your Blood Sugar by Jessie Inchauspé
I was wrong on the pod... it is actually:
*29% of Canadians are obese + 35% are overweight (64% total) - https://www.statista.com/statistics/748339/share-of-canadians-overweight-or-obese-based-on-bmi/
*42% of Americans are obese + 31% are overweight (76% total) - https://www.cdc.gov/nchs/fastats/obesity-overweight.htm
Hi my beautiful Mamas,
It’s time to talk about it: disordered eating. And what better timing than the holidays when food and triggers are all around! I get deep with you this episode by diving into the lowest point in my relationship with food, my spiral into that, and my spiral out. I also get into trauma, addiction, fucked up beauty standards and food norms, and numerology. I do my best to break down each of the life path numbers in numerology, and how mine (#5) helped me break me free from my unhealthy relationship with food. Thank you for being here my beauties.
Xoxo
Jas
Notes:
Calculate your life path numbers by adding up your birthday.
For instance, mine is May 5th 1993.
So: 5 + 5 + 1 + 9 + 9 + 3 = 32
Then add up your total for your prime number.
Ex. 3 + 2 = 5
My life path sequence is 32/5 (3 and 2 supporting, with a primary of 5).
The Life You Were Born To Live by Dan Millman
Meditation Apps:
- Headspace
- Balance
Yoga with Adriene
Helpful Holiday Podcasts by the Adult Chair with Michelle Chalfant (my personal free therapy!)
- How to Stop People Pleasing and Codependency at the Holidays
- Boundary Help at the Holidays with Sharon Martin
- Healthy & Balanced Eating During the Holidays with Jessi Jean
https://open.spotify.com/episode/0xS0aKt2uCHo0OA5DWOjQs?si=zS6fWk4WSGuEImCmtPfapg
Mamas,
Welcome to the hot fire of shame about money, and the cool relief of having found a safe place. It's hard holding space for more than one emotion, especially when they are intense and opposite. But life is rarely monochromatic in the way of emotions, isn't it? Today I talk about my journey of rejection, new options, and the door that opened - and even some daddy issues to boot. Thanks for coming along for this ride.
Xx,
Jas
Well Mamas,
This is it. Rock bottom. I am embarrassed to share this, however, it's an important part of my story. One to look back on and think how far I've come. Also, if one of my Mamas was going through this, I would be sympathetic, which gives me the courage to share my experience. And I know now what I didn't know then: it gets brighter.
I love y'all. You're keeping me sane out here.
Xx,
Jassy
Mamas,
This was the event that almost broke me in Texas. I detail my great escape out of my previous Wwoofing accommodations, and the true fear it inspired. I still have bad dreams about this, so it was a tough episode to relive while editing. I knew it would be. But once again the timing is perfect because this week, in real time, something incredible happened. Hang in there with me, Mamas, while we pray for that bright future we’re working towards.
Yours,
Xx
Mamas can you die from a broken heart? The answer is: you can come pretty close.
Every once in a while you get a clear message from your Intuition if you spend enough time listening.
With Joe, She said: Are you sure you wanna know?
With Chris, She said: He has unfinished business with his ex.
My heart can’t take no more Mamas!
Chat next week, xx
Notes:
Balance meditation app
Aisha psychic
Hey Mamas,
The day has finally arrived... I did what I said I was gonna do; I am officially in Texas. Let me fill you in on my uphill battles upon arriving including being interrogated at the airport, getting completely lost, buying a car as a Canadian, and chasing butterflies - well that part was fun at least. Then we get into life chats about weddings, being cheated on, codependence, and old flames.
Also, spoiler alert: The worst was not over. Not even close.
Notes:
My powerful psychic.
It’s power number 5, Mamas! And who better to bring on then my powerhouse of a friend, Whitney? This girl is unbreakable, let me tell ya. Join us for girl chats about our romantic friendship story, deep childhood shit, and what being our own mama means now in the face of abuse and adversity.
Until next time, Mamas,
Xx
Notes:
- Adverse Childhood Experiences (ACE) quiz [This is how I realized I had love addiction]
- The Life Changing Magic of Tidying Up by Mari Kondo
- We Can Do Hard Things with Glennon Doyle podcast
Hey lovelies,
Once again I am having mama-ception in that as I am editing this, I happened to be experiencing another drastic 'free fall', which you will hear all about in Episode 9. This week I fill you in on a major obstacle right before my departure. We discuss life currencies of money, time, and love; and dive into red and green flags in relationships - with examples, of course.
Let's pray this all makes sense one day. Hindsight is 20/20 right? Thank you for being here. Chat soon.
Xoxo
- Mama Jas
Notes:
Amanda's beautiful Lavender Tusk community
Think Like a Monk by Jay Shetty
On Purpose with Jay Shetty podcast
Yoga with Adriene's FREE 30-Day HOME Series
What makes me so special that I can't?
Happy Monday, Mamas. You can tell my voice is a little hoarse this episode from the experience I describe as a 2½ hour “exorcist breath work journey”. Here’s my girl Amanda Welton if you feel brave enough to try it for yourself and let go of some demons!
Today we talk about a woman’s weird relationship with anger, and how it may be the call to evoke some much needed mother bear energy; for ourself and for others. I get into examples of boundaries I’ve needed to set in my own life with toxic roommates, cute boys, and even dundundun my mama!
As you can tell from the title, there are themes of sexual abuse and trauma throughout, so please be advised.
This one’s a little heavier, but it’s not all rainbows and kittens out here, is it? It’s time for a heart to heart.
Until next week, Mamas. Xx
Notes:
- My favourite boundary how-to podcast: Love and Boundaries with Terri Cole - The Adult Chair Podcast
- My favourite "traumedy" comedian's pod squad: Trash Tuesday with Annie Lederman, Esther Povitzky & Khalyla Khun
Hey Mama Babies,
Happy Hallowe'en! Today I share three recent stories of rejecting men (when it rains it pours), the benefits of this for me and for them, and how to navigate difficult conversations like these. We talk about feminine and masculine energies, their dynamic and balance, and how we are the gift. I also describe the difference between Twin Flames and Soul Mates (Matt Kahn explains it even better here), and my experience with each.
Note that this podcast contains a lot of heteronormative assumptions. I am quite out of touch with gay relationship dynamics having not been in one for almost a decade - but with that, each relationship is different and unique, and I hope my intentions come out true! Remember: "Telling the truth is a kindness even if it makes people uncomfortable, and not telling the truth is an unkindness even if it makes people comfortable." - Thank you Brené Brown for that one!
As always, feel free to book a connected reading with me here, or read more in-depth blogs about "the 17th" here.
Enjoy, Mamas. Xx
www.myownmama.com
Hey Mamas! Welcome to the very first episode where I talk about what being My Own Mama means, practically speaking, by doing daily self care practices. Please always take what resonates and leave what doesn't! Remember - You are destined for a happily ever after, and your present affects your future.
www.myownmama.com
Resources:
*Free Connected Reading With Me: Oracle Pull
Workouts: 15-min dance workout + 10-min full body + 10-min back workout
Yoga: Free 30 days of yoga
Meditate: Headspace + Balance
Journal: 14-day journaling prompt
Affirmations: 5-min affirmations
Breathwork: 13-min Owaken session
My Psychic: Aisha Ecasia
Life Coach: Lavender Tusk by Amanda Welton
Women's Health Naturopath: Dr. Alison Gottschalk
Favourite Podcasts: The Adult Chair + We Can Do Hard Things + Magic Lessons + Trash Tuesday
Life Changing Reads: Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert + Wild by Cheryl Strayed + The Life Changing Magic of Tidying Up by Mari Kondo + Think Like a Monk by Jay Shetty + The 4 Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz + anything by Oprah
Notes:
*I mention tarot readings but it is actually an oracle pull.
Audio will improve - progress over perfection!
Thank you for being here <3