A man I am: Recent Episodes
A man I am
From men for men to bring the best out of you on your mission through life, in your intimate relationships and whilst pursuing your passions.
In this episode we share our journey about the podcast creation and how important it was for us to just start.
And that's the key for many things. If you want to be of service you don't need to be ready you become ready along the way.
What we went through with our mothers in order to heal our own heart and to be able to be of service to the feminine is what you get to know in this episode.
It is our belief that we men are here to serve the feminine and the children so that they feel safe to relax into their softness and thrive in their true nature.
Without doing the healing with our own mothers this wouldn't have been possible. Many break throughs happen spontaneously and you can't plan them
We alway get what we need, when we need it in order to take the next step on our journey through life.
This is the first episode in which we talk about plant medicine how it has helped us to feel present within our bodies so that the past can be released. If you want to transform your life and create a 'better' reality for yourself that the wisdom and insight we received along our journey are definitely for you. If you are on your journey to heal your past, learn to feel again and to open your heart so you can lead from it then this will be a game changer for your life. As always, take with you from here what serves you and leave the rest. All information shared are our personal experiences and if you want to go on a journey with plant medicine, find someone you trust and lean into your intuition. Wherever you are on your journey, we see you, we hear you and we love you! Leo and Julian
This episode is about facing your fears when it comes to making a change in your life. If you have a fear within you that is constantly preventing you from making a change in your life then this episode is for you.
If you are afraid to quit your job to pursue your own path and you find yourself avoiding the fear again and again, we've got your back in this episode.
Facing the fear and feeling it is actually what will set you free to move forward. The fear will always show up in our life when we are about to make a change and move into the direction of growth and expansion.
What if the fear is not as scary as it looks like? What if your greatest fear holds the greatest gift behind it? Leaning into the fear and exploring courageously and curiously is an exciting path and only you can take the steps that move your life in a different direction.
The fear is not the scary thing after all as soon as you learn how to navigate through it and see it for what it is.
There is a life waiting for you on the other side of fear, don’t let it stop you from changing your life to a better, more fulfilled, alive and pleasant experience.
This week we truly had a conversation between brothers for others.
Come along on this journey and discover what it feels like to be in a safe space to open your heart and let life on once again. Feel what it’s like to have a thriving relationship with life itself.
Life is always created from the inside out and no matter in which area of your life you try to make a change or want things to be different- it all starts within you. This is most visible in the relationship to others in a romantic sense but also in the relationship to your finances and the relationship to your business.
If you want more Love, love yourself more first.
If you want more money, be more abundant and generous and see yourself as worthy of it first.
If you want people around you to be more authentic in their power, be in your own power and observe how the world around you will change.
We also cover the topic of healing, inner child work and trauma release. We went deep and there is so much here for you to take away.
Each and everyone of us has the ability to make a change but we sometimes don’t see what needs to change or what old belief system we are operating on so we need others to help us become aware of it.
The time is now, your time is now. You are worthy of Love, Money and the best relationship with life you can imagine.
We see you, we hear you, we love you.
Leo & Julian
This episode marks the end of the series of the journey from Porn to Purpose.
It was a pleasure to be on this journey with you all and to be of service to you. This is what is part of our journey as well after we left porn behind and started to be in tune with our purpose on this planet.
Who am I? Why am I here? Those are two questions that led us to where we are. Living your purpose or living your life on purpose is a lifelong journey and your purpose on the human plane might often change but your purpose of being alive is always present.
In fact, you can not be not connected to your purpose. You truly always are connected and simply need to learn to listen to your intuitive impulses and signs that life gives you all the time.
Living a life with and on purpose is an adventure on its own and if you want to go a step deeper after this series then we invite you to get in touch with us and send us an email to amaniam.podcast@gmail.com to get notified when we open the space of our course ¨From Porn To Purpose¨ in which we will guide you and 11 other men through their process to be a man free from porn.
Thank you for tuning in today. We see you, we hear you, we love you.
Leo and Julian
In this episode we explore what it means to be connected to your true sexuality and how porn is keeping you away from it.
To be connected with your body and life force energy is a journey and if you are on your way to be a man who is free from porn then connecting to your body and your sexual energy is inevitable.
Porn happens more in the head than it does in the body and in order to be the man you want to be it is important to drop from your head in your heart space and down into your balls.
From there you penetrate the world around you and show up as the powerful man that you are inside.
Your body awareness will increase over time and with practice and we share a powerful exercise with you that will help you to get in touch with yourself in a really intimate way.
You are on your journey to be a man free from porn and there is for sure something in here for you that will support you on your journey.
Even if you had some good moments on your journey already, this episode will help you to uplevel your experience and to meet yourself deeper.
We see you, we hear you, we love you!
Quitting porn is a path of taking responsibility and your power back in your own hands. You probably tried to quit many times and want to make the final move now to be free from porn.
In order to do that, you need to take your power back.
You have a lot of power within you and you gave it away in the past and let yourself down.
It’s time to let that behavior go and step up. What we did was to connect with all the times we let ourselves down and fell back to watching porn and to then to tap on our chest and scream all that built up anger up out.
The best way to do that is to go out into nature and primal scream and let the pressure out.
There is something special that happens when you allow yourself to connect with your raw power and show it - first and foremost to yourself.
Only you can make a change, only you can choose to do something differently and to take charge of your own life.
No one can do it for you but you, so do it. It is your life that is waiting for you in freedom, power and connection.
You got this!
Leo and Julian
In this episode we are covering all we have discovered on our journey when it comes to being free from porn and changing the way we see ourselves.
It all starts in the mind and what we think about ourselves. Who am I? Who do I want to be? Those are questions that are helping you to define yourself beyond the version of you that were identified with in the past.
In order to be a man who is free from porn you need to see yourself and identify as a man who is free from porn and connected to his purpose. It’s a process and that takes energy, dedication and surrender. You can check our episode about surrender out here:
https://youtu.be/ERoV9Bh-SbA
It all starts within you. You can choose what you want to be and how you want to show up in life. In order for the new you to emerge, the old you need to leave and that process can be uncomfortable because you don’t know yet what is happening and how life will be. You are not in control anymore in the way you used to.
Imagine yourself driving an automatic car for years and now you change to manual. It takes some practice to get used to it, to put in conscious effort in order to make it a smooth ride and practice to do the work yourself instead of letting it happen.
The cool thing with the mind is that you can choose your thoughts and dictate your mind what to thing instead of being a slave to it.
You are that powerful and next week we're gonna talk about what you can do to take your power back!
This episode got us going deep into loving yourself along your journey of freeing yourself from porn.
Many times in the past we could observe negative self-talk, looking down on ourselves and avoiding looking into our eyes after going to porn.
And this is exactly what needs to happen in order to be free from porn you need to own it and look deep into your eyes.
You need to own the behaviour, you need to own what you did and look right at it.
When you find yourself in a low state, especially after watching porn pour love into yourself and be with what you feel.
Avoiding yourself doesn’t help. You can’t undo what happened and if you would have known it better before, you have done it better.
You are on your path to free yourself and this is already an amazing step into being free from porn. You are on your way. Acknowledge that and keep going on the path to your freedom.
You got this!
In the episode we are talking about the second step we discovered along our journey that helped us to experience freedom from porn.
It is to face the emptiness within and to stay present with what is coming up in you whenever you feel an urge to go to porn coming up.
It is through the breath that you start to build a connection to your body so that you can stay present within your body instead of reacting and giving into an urge.
And let’s face it. Triggers are everywhere nowadays and the only thing you can control is what you do about them. You can’t pause everything in your life and avoid going out or going on the internet at all just to not get triggered.
But what you can do is to free yourself from old, trained behavior that led you down the porn road and instead start to take your power back and retrain yourself to experience true inner freedom.
You got this!
One of the first things we needed to do on our journey to overcome watching porn was to talk about.
Hiding behind shame and hoping to never be figured out was a self built prison that had only one exit door- to talk about and face it head on.
When you look at the map of consciousness by David Hawkin you will see that shame is at the very bottom. This is because shame keeps you separated from others, powerless and drains your energy through constantly maintaining the secret.
In order to break free we had to talk about it, to share our stories with close friends and even family. The moment we did that, our journey to freedom began. Once one door was unlocked and we could walk through it, so many other doors in other areas also started to open up and life started to be more fun and filled with aliveness again.
Come along and let yourself be inspired to get started on your personal journey from porn to purpose.
In today’s episode we share our experience about the creative flow and how to get into it. Many times in the past we found and today sometimes still find ourselves in a state of resistance and overwhelm to do something or we feel we need to push harder and do more - in order to feel ‘enough’. What that leads to is tiredness, anxiety and stress in our systems which brings us even further away from where we want to be - which is in the creative flow state connected to the present moment.
In order to break the cycle of ‘I should do more, I should do it now’ and to let go of the should’s, our strategy is to relax and rest.
When we rest and allow our bodies to regulate and integrate the transformation from the last weeks and daily insight and make us a new person, the stress calms down, the mind slows down and we can actually hear our intuition again that tells us the next aligned steps we need to take.
Today we had so much fun talking about the art and importance of play.
When we grow up we naturally do it. Whether it’s in the sandbox, playing lego, with dolls or hide and seek with other kids or our parents. All we know is play. The moment we enter school life turns around and we start getting broken into machines that function, sit still and listen to what is being taught - whether we are interested in it or not.
The pressure to perform well, to get good grades in order to fit into society's expectations is ridiculous.
So as soon as we hit adulthood most of us have forgotten how to play. And today we had a look at that topic and shared with you how we started to be more playful again, how to let go of the constant worry and pressure from the mind and what it does to our overall state when we allow ourselves to play.
Play can have so many shapes and forms. It does not matter how you play and what you see as play. It simply matters that you have fun and allow yourself to be childlike again and do what brings you joy on a regular basis.
As soon as you play life becomes filled with curiosity, with laughter, with lightness. So much of what we thought we had to be and do can be forgotten when we go in play mode and all that we are creating becomes so much more fun.
How do you play and do you play on a regular basis?
In this episode we are talking about the magic that happens when you say yes to the doors that are already open and available all around you at any given moment.
Taking a leap of faith to quit an old job, start a business and follow your own path can be an overwhelming act to do. Today we share with you our journey and how we went from the old to the new life we are currently creating.
You don’t need to know all the steps before taking the first one. You will get to know what you need to know when you need to know it.
All the experiences that you had in the past are serving you in whatever you are going to do next. Every door you open and walk through is including the wisdom you got from your life so far. You are simply expanding your consciousness and your awareness to the next level of life that you want to live.
If you want to make a change in your life, remember that you can’t go wrong. You can always adjust a decision you make, but you can never get the time back that you are sitting around and waiting for the perfect moment to appear in order to start.
Another point we cover is that just being curious and saying yes to what is in front of you is enough. You don’t need to commit to the path if you find out it’s not for you to follow it. But say yes and see what unfolds from that. Sometimes it can even mean that you will feel some pain or rejection coming up that you needed to move through and learn from.
You might never feel ready to do the thing life is asking you to do. But you can trust that life has always a plan for you and guides you to the right people, in the right time and the right place.
You do not need to know all the answers, simply ask yourself who can help you and what do you need to learn in order to get to where you want to be.
What are you ready to lean into in your life?
This episode is the most transformative of them all so far. Tapping into our vulnerability and authentic selves is still a challenge sometimes and yet we do it all the time.
Today we leaned into being more of ourselves as we are in this exact moment here and now.
It is a new experience for the nervous system over and over again and true breakthroughs happen most often when we don’t expect them - like today.
Choosing to lean into the discomfort and letting out what wants to come out is truly magical.
Many times we feel tightness in our chests and tension in the body and we feel like we need to be someone in order to be loved and seen and heard but the truth is that only when we show ourselves as we are can we be seen and heard and the heart opens up once again.
The time to put the masks down has come and here we are showing up and taking the next step on softening and opening up to be seen for who we truly are.
Where do you still wear a mask and try to protect your wounds from being seen and heard?
In this episode we went live on youtube and shared our journey through our awakening process and when we got in touch with our Self's the first time consciously.
The journey on the this planet looks different for everybody and we are here to have a conversation between brother for others so you can get inspired by our stories.
Recording episodes and sharing them is fun but being live here with you is an even better way to connect with you and to get to know you.
Join us live and share the link with everyone you feel can benefit from listening to exciting stories about the awakening of the authentic Self beyond the BS, limitations and also what it takes to be authentic.
We look forward to share time and space with you and to share our raw and unfiltered stories with you.
In today’s episode we talk about the art of letting go and what happens when you lean into the present moment that holds you whilst you are surrendering to the process.
Letting go is in fact nothing you actively do, it is a process you allow to happen. Letting go of old stories that are stored in the body helps you to grow and expand into your highest version of yourself.
The more you practice the art of letting go, the easier it becomes for you to understand that you are safe when you let go and that there is nothing to fear.
Your body might react in the beginning and parts within you want to hold on to what feels so familiar and when you are more and more able to see through what is happening and you understand the mechanics, then you can choose to trust and let go.
In today's episode we share about the importance of body awareness and what is connected to it in the bigger picture.
Being connected to the body is the way of living and we were stuck in our heads, nothing really moved forward. The heart is not heard, emotions were screaming to be felt but there was no connection.
Being able to connect to our bodies helped us to build a stronger relationship to ourselves as well as others.
Being willing and able to feel it all and to have our hearts open is what made the big shift. Not only is it important to be connected to the body in order to connect with one self and others but it is also important to feel our body telling us what kind of food is good for us, which environment is serving us best and God has it’s way to speak to us through the body as well.
Come along and let yourself be inspired to strengthen your body awareness and the connection to your body and therefore life itself.
Today's episode is about friendship, connecting with others and the ability to be vulnerable and having an open heart whilst meeting others.
When we met online we didn’t know each other but we were open to what the connection will lead us towards.
From having a few calls and being very open and vulnerable we created a safe space and tapped into the possibilities of creating something together. Here we are with the A man I am Podcast! In this episode we are actually in one physical place and made it happen to spend time together.
With openness, trust and making it important to connect with someone, it is totally possible to create deep, heartfelt connections with friends all over the world. Not that that can replace the physical meetings and connections with others, but once you are able to connect with yourself - which is what we did and where we met ourselves first, you can basically connect with everyone around the world because you are meeting in a space which happens more energetically and you can tap into that from wherever you are.
We all became so much more open and sensitive to people and energies around us that it is actually easier to connect with others to find your tribe than ever before. Boundaries, how we set them and where we are now with that is another topic we touch on in this episode.
Come along with us and enjoy today’s episode.
This episode covers a very vulnerable topic to talk about in public. Porn addiction! We have both suffered from and went through years upon years on porn addiction from a very early age on.
We share with you how it all started for us, what we felt and how we ended it.
We talk about the way of moving through the layers of shame and guilt, the loneliness, the pain, the amount of pressure that was built inside of us and what helped us to finally break free from it and to start living a fulfilled and alive and embodied life.
Just the intent to end it was not enough since there was so much more to it than the eye could see. We realised that in order to stop watching porn and to waste our precious energy, there was some deep inner work to do.
The void we felt inside, the pain we were running from, all that needed to be addressed in a self loving and compassionate way.
Insecurities and anxiety that were chasing us needed to be looked straight into the eye so it stopped having power over us.
Today we open up and share our deepest experience so you can see that you are not alone and that there is a way out of it.
In this episode we talk about what courage is and how we trained that muscle within ourselves to do the things that scared us but were the most amazing to do for our growth.
Courage works like a muscle and the more often we put ourselves into a situation that scared us and where we needed to go beyond what we knew was safe, the stronger that muscle became.
Another beautiful aspect about courage is that the more experiences you have in one area of your life the more you can take that into all other aspects of life.
From traveling the world, over quitting your job and going after your passions to having difficult conversations within a relationship.
Courage serves us everywhere and knowing how to move through the fear to make the move is priceless.
The more aligned we felt on our way and the more courageous we took action, the less important the outcome became the more we found the golden nuggets on the way.
In the end it is about the journey and who we are becoming along the way and less about the goal at the end of the journey, because the mind will always come up with new goals, and higher highs to reach for.
In this episode we are sharing what it feels like to meet resistance on the path through life and whilst outgrowing an older version of ourselves. Opening up for something new is always scary for some parts within us that love the comfort of where we are.
Often the feelings are giving another meaning then what they actually are showing us. Feeling the feelings that are coming up whilst moving out of your comfort zone is a sign of growth.
If it feels hard and as if you hit a wall, that’s normal and it all just wants to be welcomed and loved because it’s a new life you are stepping into and that can bring up a lot of old stories, fears and sensations in the body.
The resistance to the resistance is the only thing that makes it actually hard.
The moment you realise what is going on, you have a choice and you start seeing through the behaviour, the old way of how you coped with the fears and you can choose to lean into the unknown and the discomfort.
In order to see choices you need to create a space of awareness, you will learn what we did in order to do that instead of being swapped away into our old cycle.
What does it mean to surrender and how can you start to move with life instead of against it. That’s what we are talking about in this episode of the A man I am podcast.
Life is always opening doors, the question is if we have the courage to walk through them and to follow where the universe guides us.
There is an important ingredient in the act of surrender. That is to take aligned, inspired action.
To sit passively and to wait until life brings you everything you want is not the way this game here works. Life is asking you to step out of your comfort zone and to take action that sometimes even scares you a lot.
In the moment of surrender you don’t know all the answers and you make uncertainty you biggest friends. You just act and you let go of what the outcome will be. It is trust in life and curiosity about who you are becoming in the process that really matters.
The more you let go of the outcome and just focus on the action in the moment, the easier it will be to not let the mind interfere with your process. You are perfect, whole and complete just the way you are and life always takes care of you.
Another important part we cover is the connection to yourself so that you are moving from a place of being okay with who are and being enough for yourself towards more you vs. away from pain and whilst being in a state of resistance about what is and who you are.
When you are connected to yourself and you act from that guidance and lean into the magic of life, everything becomes playful and effortless.
In this episode we share how we got in touch with the boy inside us that wants to share and express himself.
We had to go to the darkest and most loneliest places within ourselves in order to find him and we share with you how that process worked for us and what we discovered along the way.
The path of self discovery is not easy and with a little help is most often easier to get started since it takes courage to go on the inner quest.
Once you see your inner child and get to know him, he will show you what he needs and it’s in your responsibility then to connect with him over and over again and to build trust that has been broken over and over again before.
You are his dad now and it’s up to you to fix what has been broken and to choose to show up for yourself now, even on the days when you absolutely don’t feel like it.
That’s how you build integrity. That’s how you change your life. You do it over and over again until you feel safe within your own body again and you Know that you are there for you no matter what.