Yellow, Gold, Kings, Fathers, and the Sun – Julien Aklei: Recent Episodes
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How you do now baby?
You a good good baby.
Climb upon my airplane
So much world to see now baby.
Where the sunbeams sway
I drew the cards I saw us play
You were the one for me I saw us high
Hand in hand in that sky.
If you smile now baby give you this big bone
But if you cry you cry alone
Watch the windows chatter
See the rain go splitter splatter
Has it been this way forever?
You tell me it doesnt matter.
You say the past is gone
The future is a big unknown
And all we have is just one second
Right with me where you belong.
You told me how smile and dream
I told myself I’d never scream
I told myself I wouldn’t cry
But still I cry at everything…
If you smile now baby give you this big bone
But if you cry you cry alone
From the day you born
You work your fingers to the bone
So how can I stand there before you
Asking you where you belong?
You know the future’s just a lie
The past is best left there to die
So how can I stand there before you
Asking you for reasons why?
Life feel like a big green wave
A thousand pulses every day
I try to keep myself upright
But still I fail in everyway.
If you smile now baby give you this big bone
But if you cry you cry alone
How am I doing? Well, I’ve conquered the world of vice and now I can afford to buy a car. A few months back I was on the verge of homelesshess. Draw your own conclusions.
So what’s next for the woman who has turned Pure Evil into her little lap dog?
The World of the Sun.
The most wonderful thing about life is how there are infinite worlds to conquer. You can never exhaust them. A new world is a new mathematics. Everything changes. I love it. Every world is lucent and perfectly crystallized. It’s own rules. It’s own morality. I love it so much. Nothing makes me more excited than preparing to enter a new world. I am cleaning my apartment right now in anticipation.
I always thought of a home as a spaceship that lets you travel between worlds. You program it for the new world you want to enter and it flies you there. The most exciting thing ever.
Who knows what the future holds & when I’ll have to face the plane of survival again. God probably plunges all of us there periodically to give our red a tune up. But for this one moment, I am relatively safe. Safer than before. My apartment is warm. Warm air is the ultimate luxury.
And all through no virtue of my own. Quite the opposite. In fact, when I was living out my own version of virtue- working hard, setting sights low, inflicting pain on self when possible- I was sinking the fastest. Hard work can’t save you once you get too close to the realm of slaves. Cause money comes from other people. If money is about anything, it’s about social intelligence, not work. I still don’t have any of that though. I just temporarily hit some good luck.
Had I been saved by my own efforts, perhaps I’d emerge from the pit with a different philosophy. But as it is, I move forward with the feeling that a person’s own efforts have little impact on their destiny. It’s external influences that make or break us. We are one, they are many & hence far more powerful.
So while some see responsibility as focusing on what you can control, to me it means trying to befriend those things more powerful than you.
Like the sun. He is the King of our Solar System.
Decorating my apartment to prepare for the Sun’s arrival.Luckily the sun doesn’t care if you are neat or messy.He only cares that you display pictures of him.That is all he asks.In exchange he gives us Everything.
Watch the world with hopeful eyes
staring at its black disguise
hiding-where are you?
Underneath a checkerboard
knights and kings keeping score
crying- can it be true?
Under your purple eyes
black squares and white squares lie
fighting- which one is true?
Under your aqua shirt
hope is killed off by hurt
all on the surface is blue.
Don’t lose heart whatever life brings
you must believe that behind all things
Golden Fingers pull on the strings!
Prop your head up on your arm
in your eyes I see no intent to harm
that’s why I love you.
But the day will surely come
when you will kill or be the one
whom they pour their poison into.
Don’t be their fluffy sheep
sink into places deep
let evil flow through your root.
Hardened heart, inky skull
feast like a cannibal
all of the black squares were true.
Killing hurts and killing stings
but you must believe that behind the scenes
Golden Fingers pull on the strings!
When you’re dark, when you’re mean
doing things that shouldn’t be seen
I will be here with you.
Bodies lie, angels spy
we fall to earth, one day we fly
all of the white squares were true.
In the sky they saw
your hand and they understand
you did what you had to do.
Kill or be killed they know
that’s the way black squares roll
all of their tears were for you.
Don’t lose heart whatever life brings
you must believe that behind all things
Golden Fingers pull on the strings!
The original song… from a time when I was obsessed with men being able to make their way across the checkerboard of black and white squares to receive their crown of solid gold….
To swing, to fight
A world at night
To shake, to weep
A world asleep.
They sleep, I see
No one touches me
They think I don’t know
The place where all the children go.
Paw Paw the ringing boy
When spring comes he will bring you so much joy.
Paw Paw the ringing boy
When summer comes then the world will fade away.
These things
A world of strings
But look, you’ll see
The world is me.
Alien, okay
I don’t care what they say
I am bought and sold
Although he is very old.
Paw Paw the ringing boy
When spring comes he will bring you so much joy.
Paw Paw the ringing boy
When summer comes then the world will fade away.
Your needs
A string of beads
I dance, I twirl
A milk white pearl
Worlds fade, worlds end
I dance, I spin
No one touches me
Except for spirituality.
Paw Paw the ringing boy
When spring comes he will bring you so much joy.
Paw Paw the ringing boy
When summer comes then the world will fade away.
About this song…. Paw Paw The Ringing Boy
Also… Paw Paw The Ringing Boy
My recording machine broke & I don’t know what to do about that so at the moment I am just gonna record songs on my phone as videos cuz I don’t know what else to do.
Don’t be sad you’re never alone.
Take my hand why would you say that now?
Cause you could only love me when I was gone.
Close my eyes I try to fight it but I
Something inside me knows where you go
Daylight comes I wait for the change
Wrap your golden arms around me why
Could you only love me when I was strange?
Laugh and smile I try to hide it but I
Something inside me knows where you go
So I’ll try to run away
It’s the hardest thing to do
I want to cling to you tell you all the things
That you don’t care about
But if I decide to stay
Just to watch you slip away
And all the while the orange
Bleeding out.
You don’t come and then come the moon.
So he fall like fire upon me but why
Could you only love me when I was new?
Drag myself towards the mirror help me
Something inside me knows where you go
Holding hands with the King of Spades
And the sun float by in a yellow parade
He rose, he came, he saw into the flow.
Sun drop low and it turn to gray
All the shadows stretch and they reach away
To who? To why? To what? You’ll never know.
Tell yourself it’s enough when baby
There are three men waiting to kill you
And if he isn’t tough enough to fill you
You gotta let him go.
Cause when night fall like a sheet of black
Then you’re going to need someone
Don’t waste your time on a man whose having fun.
King of Spades lying on his back
When you leave the room with his eyes on your back
He rose, he came, he saw into the flow.
Mirror leaning against the wall
Till you throw your brush watch it crumble and fall
To scream, to feel, to cry and to explode.
Then you tell yourself it’s enough when baby
There are three men waiting to end you
And if he isn’t tough enough to defend you
You gotta let him go.
Cause when night come and the stars appear
Then you’ll need a place to run
Don’t waste your time on a man whose having fun.
King of Spades purple robe, eyes at night, shine and glow
Spread the deck tell him everything you know.
Eyes that shine, circling, oh God I can’t remember anything
Except I wanted you to come and carry me home.
So I tell myself it’s enough when baby
There are three men waiting to bleed me
And if you isn’t tough enough to need me
I gotta let you go.
Cause when night come and the chill appear
The game has just begun
I can’t waste my time on a man whose having fun.
King of SpadesDownload
Close your eyes
Fantasize a place that’s safe and warm in your mind
A yellow world from the storm all the time
Arms. No more harm today.
Sometimes I go fly so far away.
So I’lll sit and day dream maybe
Hiding in the sun
Cold comes to remind you that he’s only having fun.
Someone deal you a heart & you play it
Because you wanted a game
But in the end it’s pain
In the end it’s pain.
Lie me down
Spill my mind to the ground
Roll over me
Show me everything I want to see.
Hands. Wander thru the day
Sometimes we go fly so far away.
So I’lll sit and day dream maybe
Hiding in the sun
Cold comes to remind you that he’s only having fun.
Someone deal you a heart & you play it
Because you wanted a game
But in the end it’s pain
In the end it’s pain.
Whisper in my ear you’re blurry now
I wanted something but dont know how
Dont know how to try.
Everyone said why do you feel this way
When he could be the man
Who changes everything
But I dont know I fly.
So I’lll sit and day dream maybe
Hiding in the sun
Cold comes to remind you that he’s only having fun.
Someone deal you a heart & you play it
Because you wanted a game
But in the end it’s pain
In the end it’s pain.
DaydreamDownload
Do you think that I could save you
If you aren’t even brave?
Do you remember when I found you
You were no more than a slave?
Driven round by two horses
Of indifference and desire.
You were laughing like a baby
You had not met the rectifier.
But every man will be tested
Every man is gonna bleed.
Line then up like horses
Bring them to their knees.
Yeah, every man gets tested
Is he a cheat a brute a liar?
And then they go back to the fire.
Look at you so tragic
A little tear drips down your face.
You’re crying now but only for yourself
And the trials you’ll have to face.
You’re figuring God is gonna skin you
He’s gonna wear you like a cape.
You’re noticing just how he laughs so hard
When the terror makes you shake.
But every man will be tested
Every man is gonna bleed.
He lines then up like horses
He brings them to their knees.
Yeah, every man gets tested
Is he a cheat a brute a liar?
And then they go back to the fire.
You know I want to love you
Your muscles and your arms.
You know the way I feel for you
I want to wear you like a charm.
But all the red is coming for you now
Down from heaven like a wave.
I’d sacrifice myself for you if I could
Beautiful man if there was a way.
But every man will be tested
Every man is gonna bleed.
Line then up like horses
Bring them to their knees.
Yeah, every man gets tested
Is he a cheat a brute a liar?
And then they go back to the fire.
Beautiful ManDownload
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They came on clouds to comfort me
Lay down, they said
I close my eyes now, I close my eyes now
They said one day they’d ride with me
We’ll fly so far- invisibility.
Pla,y play another game for they don’t know
What may be coming down the line
Lay out the cards again or they won’t go
So sure the king would come this time.
One man was fire, one man was rain
What mad desire
I close my eyes now, I close my eyes now
Between the two, which one should I believe?
I trusted fire the more- invisibility.
Play, play another game for they don’t know
What may be coming down the line
Lay out the cards or they won’t go
So sure the king would come this time.
And so fire got down upon one knee
To gift me pain
I close my eyes now, I close my eyes now
For I know that I was made to suffer and to bleed
Hurt me more, invisibility.
Play, play another game for they don’t know
What may be coming down the line
Lay out the cards or they won’t go
So sure the king would come this time.
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InvisibilityDownload
They came on clouds to comfort me
Lay down they said
I close my eyes now, I close my eyes now
They said one day they’d ride with me
We’ll fly so far- invisibility.
Play play another game for they don’t know
What may be coming down the line
Lay out the cards or they won’t go
So sure the king would come this time.
One man was fire, one man was rain
What mad desire
I close my eyes now, I close my eyes now
Between the two, which one should I believe?
I trusted fire the more- invisibility.
Play play another game for they don’t know
What may be coming down the line
Lay out the cards or they won’t go
So sure the king would come this time.
And so fire came to get down on one knee
And gift me pain
I close my eyes now, I close my eyes now
For I know that I was made to suffer and to bleed
Hurt me more, invisibility.
Play play another game for they don’t know
What may be coming down the line
Lay out the cards or they won’t go
So sure the king would come this time.
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