By All Means Necessary: Recent Episodes
Marco Morillo
By All Means Necessary is a podcast about raw & uncut stories of human resilience, with the disease of addiction. My name is Marco Morillo. I'm a private chef, and was addicted to drugs for 19 years. I was Lost, and about to lose everything.... got clean... and joined the fellowship of Narcotics Anonymous, where I continue daily, to work a 12 Step Program. On this Podcast I will delve into the unique personal experiences of a person's path to sobriety & recovery who have fought similar battles.. These stories are emotionally riveting, unbelievably vulnerable, and truly inspiring.
So lets stay clean together - By All Means Necessary. Follow us now on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, or wherever else you enjoy your shows.
My wife Debbie talks about her side of recovery after I got home from rehab. She immediately started seeing a therapist “Noel Nu” weekly and went to nar anon meetings. After sharing at these meetings she felt a comfort that she was not alone.
In my early recovery my character defects were still strong. She had to navigate around my selfish actions to work on herself and help the children. She said she had to be both parent’s emotionally and physically while giving me space which was not an easy decision for her.
Debbie talks about making a “choice” getting through the good and bad times together as a family and learning about the disease of addiction at the same time. She said that being in recovery together has brought more compassion, love and trust in our relationship and family.
Thank you babe for always being there for the kids and myself, I LOVE YOU!! BAMN
My recovery brother Jeremy shares his amazing journey through the depths of addiction to sobriety. With over 6 years sober he speaks about starting to use alcohol and weed at the young age of 12 years old.
Jeremy identified himself as an athlete playing multiple sports in high school. While playing varsity sports his drug use broadened to other substances. He decided to stay in his hometown and didn’t pursue college football.
His addiction grew heavily over the course of 10 years. With multiple relapses and hospital stints nothing was working in his favor to get sober. He shares this amazing God moment which turned his life around and got him down to southern Florida.
Jeremy started Recovery Through Repetition, which is a nonprofit organization whose mission is to connect those in the recovery community through a shared passion for fitness. BAMN RTR
My best friend Jared “Flash” Gordon drops in for his second episode. Jared speaks about how fighting in the UFC is his passion and love. He breaks down what it’s like fighting in front of huge crowds and what his mindset is in the octagon. Jared shares a powerful story where he almost relapsed but had a God moment that led him to stay sober. I ask him about if he has neutrality with being around substances and he talks about a friend in Queens who he was passed out with a needle in his arm and bags of dope all around him. Jared has always been there for me since day 1 in our friendship. He’s someone who I genuinely look up to regarding his recovery path and how he stays sober while always helping others who are struggling in active addiction or in recovery. BAMN
Mark Astor-DAA Drug And Alcohol Attorneys Mark has a boutique law firm specializing in helping families and individuals in crisis because of substance use and mental health disorders. Mark talks about how he uses the Marchment Act to assist families in getting there loved ones the necessary help for substance abuse and mental health. We also speak in length how the Baker Act is rigged and I share my horrific experience in a psych ward. BAMN
My recovery brother Scott Russell who has 6.5 years sober drops some serious knowledge about addiction, recovery, spirituality, meditation and fitness training. Scott shares about having a “profound sense of relief” the first time he had a drink at the young age of 15.
Scott eventually got sober down her in Soflo. He channeled his artistic passion and started From The Grave custom apparel. This lead to From The Grave podcast which has over 100 episodes. FTG is “real + raw material of life with a spiritual undertone.” I highly recommend checking the podcast out!
Scott has helped me tremendously in my recovery journey in the short time we have become friends. Putting me on to different authors or introducing me to solid ppl and organizations in the recovery community. FTG BAMN GANG
My kids Camille & Quinn open up about what their lives were like having a father in active addiction, dealing with me going to rehab, and finally getting into recovery.
We have had many different conversations over the years but none like this! Their raw and emotional account of what their experiences were give a small glimpse into how addiction is truly a family disease. To hear in depth how my addiction affected and changed their lives is humbling.
I’m so proud of the humans that they have become. I am in constant awe of their resilience, compassion and empathy. Some might say I’m ‘lucky’, but I believe it always start with ‘self’. Staying clean another day has given me my family back, and for that I’m eternally grateful. BAMN
My good friend Greg shares this insane story about what happens when you use copious amounts of drugs for days and make horrific decisions. Greg shares that he didn’t care about his own life at the time so why would he care about another life. I’m glad everyone made it out alive and Greg can share this story and is clean today. BAMN
My good friend Greg who has over 7 years clean used for over 35 yrs shares his story. Growing up he always felt a little different, never felt a part of and wasn’t comfortable in his own skin. After he smoked his first joint he was off and running in his addiction, always chasing that first high. After being arrested by several task forces he was institutionalized and served several years in prison. He shares about a “God” moment where he was simply asked by a store clerk how he was doing. That flipped a switch where he decided to start to participate in meetings and open up to other people in recovery. He speaks about his daily routine to stay clean one day at a time. BAMN
Harry shares about obtaining his GED in prison and what a huge accomplishment that was for him. After his release he worked various jobs while his disease started getting worse.
He shares about a “God” moment where he heard his father telling him that he needed to get his life together immediately.
Harry breaks down how he was fortunate enough to get a bed in a sober living home and his relationship with a man in recovery who basically saved his life and introduced him to NA.
He opens up about how his first episode on BAMN podcast allowed his brother to understand Harry’s “demon”, the disease of addiction and how they have been able to come together like true brothers!! BAMN
Noel speaks about what early recovery looks like for some calling it happy, joyous and free. He says this lasts for a brief period calling it a “pink cloud”. Then the addict might self medicate with familiar childhood addictions which he calls “process addiction”. We get into my own personal battle with sugar and the tools he’s provided which has helped me tremendously!! BAMN
I’m fortunate enough to be a patient of Noel who specifically treats me for addiction therapy. Noel also has an amazing 23 years clean! He shares about being in early recovery and helping other recovering addicts which led him to getting his masters in mental health counseling. Noel breaks down trauma with the “inner child” and what it looks like if it’s not addressed with mental health treatment throughout the years. He also touches on the solutions being simple but not easy to master and having to be gentle and firm with self consistently. Big thank you to Noel for always being patient with me and guiding me in this journey of my recovery.
My first sponsor Len who has an amazing 16 years clean used drugs for 34 years. Len shares about an early horrific trauma being struck by a car at the very young age of 3 years old and how he developed a speech impediment. He was teased and bullied by his peers and that took a huge emotional toll on him. Len was an active athlete in grade school and high school never touching alcohol or drugs. He shares about a football injury that lead him to being prescribed Vicodin at 18. That’s when his addiction started and lead him to try any new designer drug that came out for the next 34 years. Len shares about his “God” moment in treatment and has stayed clean one day at a time. #bamn
Devyn joins the podcast with 4 months clean. They openly share about the affects of their parents being divorced had on them. As a juvenile, they were sexually abused and couldn’t confide to their mother. Feeling lonely and not validated their first addiction surfaced, cutting. Devyn describes the feeling of euphoria after the cutting episodes. Devyn talks about abusing alcohol and weed all through high school with the feeling of blissful while intoxicated. As time passed Devyn was in and out of mental hospitals for suicidal ideation and was given psych medication and diagnosed with bipolar and addicted to cocaine. They fortunately got into rehab and joined the fellowship of narcotics anonymous and has a sponsor and works a diligent program to stay clean one day at a time. #bamn
My good friend Jason with 27 months clean shares his heroic story!! He gets real and opens up being sexually molested by his uncle, taking numerous beatings from his father and being given up for adoption by his mother.
Renee has an unbelievable story! She opens up about the horrific trauma as a very young girl dealing with an alcoholic father who constantly beat her. Furthermore being molested by her uncle, she had to hide it from her parents. Renee eventually became hooked on smoking crack and after multiple relapses she got clean and has 32 years in recovery after all the trauma she was dealt with.
My good friend Tyler who has over 11 years sober, shares his story. Tyler talks about his trauma from his best friend getting struck and killed by a train. Tyler has worked in the recovery field for most of his recovery, and speaks about the importance of helping struggling addicts and how that shapes his recovery.
My good friend Octavio shares his amazing story growing up in Nicaragua with his tight knit family. He talks about his first time using cocaine and what that did to his psyche. After multiple relapses he delves into his mental process and what it took to remain sober and how he works his program in recovery.
Brother Manny is in the studio, 10 1/2 years clean after growing up battling in the streets. He bounced around in adolescent homes, which eventually led him to start smoking weed. Then graduated to smoking crack. After serving 11 years in jail, he got out and started a good life for himself, but picked up crack once more and lost everything. This was his final relapse, where he decided to get clean and work a strict program in NA.
Harry shares about being born and raised in Miami Struggling with his relationship with his mother beating him when he was young and was devastated when his father passed away. He talks about the first time using cocaine in juvenile detention center and what it made him feel like.
Jeff opens up about being abandon by his mother as a youth and what that was like for him at such a young age. He later enlists in the Army where he was deployed to the Gulf War. There, Jeff had to id bodies and took its toll on him mentally that led to him now suffering from ptsd. He shares about surviving 2 overdoses in a four hour period.
My good friend Jared “Flash” Gordon who is a professional ufc fighter shares his unbelievable story. Jared opens up about being sexually molested as a youth and turning to drugs. In and out of rehabs and several overdoses he eventually hit rock bottom and had enough. With over 6+ years sober he keeps what he has by giving it away!!💯
My wife Debbie shares her story on what it’s like on the other side of addiction. Debbie speaks about unknowingly being with an addict for over 12 years and what it was like for her leading up to me going into rehab. We felt like this is definitely important to hear her pain and struggles.
I share my experience working in a Las Vegas hotel and NYC restaurants, where drugs were a major part of the culinary scene.
I share my story about childhood trauma and how I feel it led to me using drugs to ease the pain. Getting caught up in active addiction for 19 years I almost lost my wife and children. My personal rehab experience and joining the fellowship of Narcotics Anonymous. Staying clean one day at a time.