Let's go back to the Start: Recent Episodes
Madeeha Noor
Plugging back into the Feeling of Being Loved and Creating from a Place of Love, in every moment
The "beginning" for me is channeling the Confidence a child feels, instinctively, in knowing how strongly he is connected and Loved by the Creator - the Confidence with which he creates, dreams, discovers and shows up in the world in every moment and so, Going Back to the Start is Plugging into that FEELING of Love, Feeling of Freedom Feeling on Confidence as grownups - How do we do that? By starting SMALL in every moment - By choosing what we WANT To do without fear and with love in every moment -
For Usman, the beginning is in each moment, in each day and it begins with a prayer, a "dua" that you set for yourself, of ease and love and abundance and then choosing to PLUG back into the Belief of that dua in every instance - and begin again the next day and the next knowing that you are Taken care of Abundantly by your Creator, through your prayer.
We both agree on how the core of each moment is believing that we have been created by our Creator in Love, with Love and that is ALL THERE IS - there is no judgment no shame no guilt - there is ONLY LOVE - Believe it and witness it as He shows it to you in your everyday life. Healing Journey - Self Discovery - Self Awareness - Self Growth
Do it with a feeling of wonder
Of innocence
Of purity of heart
Bring your sense of wonder to your workplaces , your relationships
Start with an assumption of best outcome , not the worst - not waiting for the penny to drop or for the other to prove you wrong
Do it with your heart - because it feels good, because it feels right
And equally , equally, honour your inner child by honouring all your emotions, the good ones and the “bad” ones - little by little teach your mind to accept all parts of you equally - and lastly, honour your inner child by listening to your physical needs and emotional ones - rest when you need to , cry when your heart is heavy , walk away from places that make you feel less than that beautiful 1 year old or 3 year old self that deserves to be treasured -
Our emotions are the greatest storytellers - they tell us stories of despair, anger, bitterness; remind us of the moments where we have felt less somehow, suppressed, taken advantage of - where we have not felt seen or heard - where we have not been able to or allowed to speak our truth.And yet we ignore these difficult emotions or categorise them as BAD - we suppress them because it is THE HARDEST THING TO LISTEN TO OUR OWN STORIES of pain - it is HARD - and so we run - we shut down, disconnect, avoid, or over-express - either way we shut down our systems to DEFEND ourselves against difficult emotions and those SHUT DOWN defence mechanisms come up as physical dis-ease: anxiety, ADHD, migraines, depression, addiction, insomnia, weight gain, weight loss, heart disease, liver damage, blood pressure, diabetes - all of these are REPRESSED STORIES OF OUR EMOTIONS which got tired of knocking at our bodies wanting to be heard and then gave up and solidified into HARD MASS slowing down our bodies through dis-ease IN THE HOPE THAT NOW THEY WILL BE HEARD - Pay attention to your body - your body is the greatest storyteller, the most perfect, the ancient one - the question is: are you a good story-listener?
Self Worth: Through the Looking Glass
We have been programmed over centuries to attach our Value to Output - Worth = Productivity which is quantifiable, measurable and ultimately determines your place in the world - Right? How popular we are, how well liked, how well behaved, how well fitted; Self Worth = Net worth - and yet, and yet - For both, those who have been determined not Worthy (on the other end of the divide), and those who have been Approved/Validated by the world, both live with fear of failing - of being judged as being not enough, of being cast out, of being left behind, discarded - because we have been taught to measure Our worth through money & degrees, through postcodes & passports.Join me as we begin to discover a different kind of worth - not of the body and its achievements but of the soul and its light - of the heart and the million ways it learns to love and forgive and expand and give and create and FEEL its worth without any external eyes.BecauseAren't you tired of proving your value - aren't you tired of earning it? Haven't you had enough?
With Great Power comes Great Responsibility
self is the Great #creator the #origin of all That Is, and thus #powerful - as a Creator then, it is also the Only one #responsible for all events, circumstances, moments, encounters that happen within its #cosmos which means Nothing actually has the power to Happen to Us - We Create pain, anguish, betrayal, disease to teach ourselves the only lesson that truly matters: Unconditional (self) Love.
And so, just the way we have created constructs of pain and #separation, we can CHOOSE to create those of #beauty #love and #abundance With this we take the first step in reclaiming our Power and begin to #heal #selflove #growth - #discovery - #healing
What if we didn't have to DO anything to Get what we wanted? Didn't have to struggle, fight, try to make it work? What if we didn't have to Change anything or fix anything ever again? What if there was nothing TO change or Fix - what if we could, for one moment, extend ourselves this kindness of absolute, total, acceptance of exactly who we are, where we are , exactly how we are - What if we could just say for a moment: Ok it is how and it and I GIVE-IN? Not give up no, GIVE IN - feel the energy here? See how your muscles just relaxed reading this and you probably exhaled a little more lightly - see how you felt not as pulled or wound up - see how you just felt a little bit at peace? This. It is this feeling constantly in every moment that can be ours if we could just let go of fighting against the moment and instead, flow with it - If we could just Surrender and then, then, see the magic that unfolds - see how things begin to happen For you once you get out of your own way - see how synchronicities begin to carry you from one moment to the next to the next to the next, each filled with wisdom and beauty and abundance till there is NOWHERE TO ARRIVE, till there is no Destination, only the journey, only the flow - only this moment which is complete.
This is the key to manifesting true happiness, true abundance, true fulfillment - give in. Join me.
Conscious Manifestation: Quantum Bootcamp There is nothing we cannot do, have, create - the only thing stopping us from manifesting our desires is Us: our limiting beliefs that tell us stories about lack, worthlessness, guilt, shame - Join me as I take you through a boot camp version of how Conscious Manifestation works once we understand we are always ONLY operating from Quantum field: a field of all the possibilities custom designed for you to bring into your physical world.
Authentic human emotions when suppressed, when fought against , when disliked turn into solid energy blocks within our energy vessels i.e. bodies, blocking the natural flow of Universal abundance and wisdom - in not wanting to deal with the “hard stuff” we introduce resistance to receiving all the amazing things which are our birthright : love, grace, joy, freedom -
Choosing positivity is beneficial ofcourse but when done WITHOUT facing our pain, it turns into an active contributor to our energy blocks - true freedom, true peace, unlimited abundance can only flow through us when we allow ourselves the grace to accept ALL parts of ourselves, the good the bad the ugly, with equal honour - only then can we truly be free to create and experience our highest potential, our highest timelines -
To be a woman is to be on the losing side of life and of history - born a slave with chains that may not be seen, but ones that keep us enslaved most of our lives - this is what we have believed in right ? That we are fighting for freedom ? Against structures and constructs controlled by men? That it’s us vs them ?
We at Ordinary Courage hold a different belief - we believe that the true Feminine is the one that holds the Masculine within her - we believe the true Feminine is an equal balance, an equal music of creativity and courage, of instinct and strength, of magic and inspired action - Join us as we travel up a path less travelled , of finding a balance between 2 powerful energies , of Masculine and Feminine , by healing and releasing traumas that feed the illusion of being separate, so that we can rise as the Nurturing, Life Giving Feminine we were created to be.
Honouring our Human Experience
We are a hard species - hard-skinned, heard-hearted, especially, especially when it comes to ourselves - it doesn’t seem so of course because it feels like we are always blaming , pointing fingers , judging others , condemning them: guilty guilty guilty - and so it goes - here’s another POV : we are hardest hearted when it comes to condemning ourselves, judging ourselves and not being able to forgive ourselves- consider this: we do something that hurts us, in our pain we hurt another which hurts us more and so it continues - intoxicants, distractions, destructive choices and relationships, additions, diseases - all to cloak our self condemnation - once we tag ourselves as liars, cheaters, addicts, thieves, aggressive, selfish etc, we spend our lives proving it as such - once we are called liars, thieves, cheaters by our caregivers or those we love , we spend our lives proving ourselves as such - we just can’t bring ourselves to forgive ourselves for our choices and when we can’t do that , how do we then even begin to forgive another for theirs ?
I want to talk about this - the indescribable difficulty of being human , and learning to give ourselves the grace of forgiveness for being just that: human , because until we don’t, we will continue to perpetuate the cycle to self-abuse and self-harm for the rest of our lives -
Pain always has a purpose to serve - when we find ourselves getting stuck in traumatic cycles across years, or trapped in disease or addiction, here is the question to ask from yourself:
How is this disease/addiction/harmful choice SERVING me?
In the podcast we give an example of this woman who goes to an Energy Healer for her cancer - The Healer works on woman's core beliefs and helps her heal it - The woman comes back after a few months - "the cancer is back" she says, and so the healer asks, "Go inside and tell me how is this cancer serving you"
In a meditative state, this is what the woman reveals:
"My husband has never been there - he travels a lot and I have wanted him with me for a long time - since this disease, he stays with me, takes care of me - this cancer is making him stay" Do you want to heal, the Healer asks - No - replies the woman - No.
Learning our beliefs, talking to our pain and trauma like one would talk to another person, helps - the pain reveals why it is there and how it is serving us - we understand it , accept it and release it.
For me personally, here is what my pain has shown me: I have chosen dysfunctional relationships over and over again, where I was made to feel "less" to learn about my true self worth - Once I understood it, I began to feed my soul with things that nurtured it independent of another human being - flowers, music, poetry, literature, travel, writing, meditating , nature.
I can't say that my choices became healthier overnight - I have discovered that with lifelong beliefs, once we "heal" one, it begins to hide under multiple other "reasonings" and we still end up making those unhealthy choices again but this I promise: because you have uncovered one pattern, it takes just a little a bit of time for the other patterns to reveal themselves and this time, the journey is not as long, nor as intense -
Take that first step - sit with your core story of pain - whether it is that of abuse or addiction or disease and have a conversation with it - see what it has to say - it will speak - it will - and from that point begins the journey-
Healing - Self - Growth
There is a strong sense of Judgement that sits between the two, a strong sense of power play - the oppressor and the oppressed, aggressor and the victim - This judgement sits strong because it has been upheld through the actions and power imbalances between the two for centuries - and yet they are not "two" - the Masculine and Feminine are PRIMAL ENERGIES or Frequencies that we carry within ourselves, the essential life force of Creation, yin and yang - when out of balance, they create havoc, they create the world as we see it today: torn with violence and rage -
Balancing Femine and the Masculine energies calls for a different POV - an invitation to LOOK INWARD and see where we have let OUR distorted masculine energy overpower the feminine energy and where the wounded feminine has been manipulating the wounded masculine - It calls for us to call for TRUCE WITHIN, one that can ONLY be initiated by the Divine Feminine as she tunes in to her heart centre, her seat of power, unfolding her gifts of intuition, creativity and unconditional Nurturing to then invite the Masculine to lay down his arms, take off his shield, tune in to his HEART and step forward in his Divinity, led by courage, dismantling power structures to initiate a New Earth, rooted in Love -
Join me as I take you on a Journey Within with one purpose: To understand that most of our choices we have made thus far as Masculine or Feminine have stemmed from a place of pain, have stemmed from our Wounded Selves dictating most of our distorted socio-political structures and dysfunctional social and personal relationships - in seeing them as such, we set ourselves free to come back into harmony with our Divinity.
An Intervention of Self/ for self is what I call this episode Through these last 13 weeks, I had been feeling good about showing up and you know being myself, speaking my truth (etc) and yet there has been this nagging feeling like I'm still hiding, or a part of me is still hiding because I'm afraid - I've called guests in, strangers, friends and co-created with them beautifully but I would also like to explore how it is when it is just Me and Myself speaking about what I believe in, what I stand for and why I believe these podcasts, me, my journey, my vision for this world matters - so this is me , outside the lines, blurry undone me, showing up for me.
Plugging back into the Feeling of Being Loved and Creating from a Place of Love, in every moment
The "beginning" for me is channeling the Confidence a child feels, instinctively, in knowing how strongly he is connected and Loved by the Creator - the Confidence with which he creates, dreams, discovers and shows up in the world in every moment and so, Going Back to the Start is Plugging into that FEELING of Love, Feeling of Freedom Feeling on Confidence as grownups - How do we do that? By starting SMALL in every moment - By choosing what we WANT To do without fear and with love in every moment -
For Usman, the beginning is in each moment, in each day and it begins with a prayer, a "dua" that you set for yourself, of ease and love and abundance and then choosing to PLUG back into the Belief of that dua in every instance - and begin again the next day and the next knowing that you are Taken care of Abundantly by your Creator, through your prayer.
We both agree on how the core of each moment is believing that we have been created by our Creator in Love, with Love and that is ALL THERE IS - there is no judgment no shame no guilt - there is ONLY LOVE - Believe it and witness it as He shows it to you in your everyday life.