BUTTER WOULDN’T MELT: Recent Episodes
Craig Dean Devine
Showing up to show up. Doing my best to do my best. Looking at old stories to create a healthier narrative. Weekly episodes with your host CIGGY. Looking at life, trauma, growth and all the dead wood.
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Eyup my Melts! I hope everyone is well and hydrated after the heatwave we've had here in England. This week were talking about the pressures of productivity.
Eyup Melts! This week I learn't something really upsetting and helpful and a remarkable personal insight into why I often live with this feeling that I'm just not good enough. Unpack it with me.
Eyup Melts! Pay attention to those attenuated, slender threads that appear. Those moments that guide you to make decisions that could be the most important in your life.
Eyup! Back with a solo episode after a few weeks on the razz, touching base with Ciggy on the dance floor and the following repercussions.
Eyup Meeeelts! I'm 33 today and uploading my second guest episode with the lovely and insightful Mary Stancavage! Mary was my first Buddhist teacher in Los Angeles. She's a vulnerable and touching soul who has a great perspective on the Dharma. For anyone interested in Buddhism and the power of practise check out her podcast "Undefended Dharma"
Eyup Melts! What a treat, we've got our first guest on the Podcast today, Oisin Abell. A wonderful, compassionate and emotionally intelligent man who is courageous enough to share some of his story with us. We talk Fatherhood, Prison, Anger and the importance of therapy and mental health.
Eyup my Meditating Melts! Find a comfy, quiet spot for this bonus episode. We'll be doing an exercise that's been part of my daily routine for some time now called "Noting".
Eyup Melts! I got to live out a Dead Poets Society larp this week as a returned to School to teach. It made me reflect a lot on my time on my Masters and what's changed over the last ten years.
Eyup Melts! It's been a hot minute. I'm back in London watching the film industry implode and taking some time to candidly question what I want from career and how I want to shape my life moving forward. As usual some Buddhism sprinkled in and some insight into the inner workings of my bullshit.
Join Ciggy today for a practise in loving kindness meditation. Grab a cushion or chair. Settle in for a short practise. Take care
Eyup Melts. Something a little different planned for this week. I've completed my second course in teaching Meditation and after last weeks difficult Fathers Day episode I needed a change of pace. This is a short introduction which will be followed by a Metta Meditation bonus episode. Take care.
Eyup Melts! It's the third Sunday of June. Fathers Day. For many of us it's not an accessible day for celebration and joy, it can be a day of grief and loss, upset and heartache. If you struggle with Fathers Day too then hopefully you find some comfort in this weeks episode.
Eyup Melts! Back after a short break, talking all things work, life, dancing at festivals and learned behaviour about how we value our bodies.
Eyup Melts! A short but sweet episode this week. This week I'm checking in with myself, how the first week of shooting has gone and going off a tangent about a lovely Italian man who gave me a mysterious note.
Eyup, Melts! Ciggy here again for another instalment of BWM. This week I've finally got around to talking about the bizarre and impactful documentary I shot in Shetland that changed the way I understood myself.
Eyup Melts. Ciggy here. Another week another episode. Went on a bit of a tangent in this one, was expecting to talk more about the job, USA, imposter syndrome ext but I found myself thinking of my dear old Nan and the consequences of avoiding conflict.
Eyup! Ciggy here coming to you from the East Coast of the USA. This week I'm just glad I was able to show up. I had a long trip with a few bumps and a fancy first class man who reminded me of an old chip on my shoulder.
Eyup melts! I'm back after a short hiatus with another ep! Were talking about some of the characters that sit at your console, wanting to push the buttons.
Eyup! Ciggy here with this weeks episode of BWM. This week we’re chatting spiritual window shopping, spiritual bypassing and a bunch of other bits and bobs surrounding the spirit.
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Eyup! Slice of something different today, reflecting on some videos I saw recently of a certain Alpha public figure. Having seen these videos online I couldn't help but comment given the nature of the podcast. Back to just me and my feelings next week.
Eyup! Ciggy here with another episode! This Sunday I woke up in a funk, desperate to do anything but sit down and feel what I needed to feel. Sooo instead I recorded an episode, a way to convince myself I was doing something positive but ultimately still avoiding how I was feeling. Interesting , huh?
Eyup, It's a bit of a filmy man special this week. Advice for new film makers and creative types. I was asked recently to come back to teach on my Cinematography MA and it got me wondering about key advice I would give if I were to step into that environment. Here's some thoughts , tips, tricks or whatever.
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Eyup everyone, Ciggy here. This week I'm responding to a question from a listener regarding violence and how I responded growing up. Thanks for writing in, if anyone else wants to engage please hit me up on butterwouldntmeltpodcast@gmail.com
Eyup, It's Monday, we're here, we're doing our best to stay consistent with this new medium. This week I'm talking about the nature of my Dad's crime, a question a lot of you have been asking about over the last few months.
Eyup, my melts. I just got back from a Mens retreat and it surfaced a lot of tension and issues I still hold with Men, especially older men. It bought up a lot of fears around trust and violence and ultimately made me take a good look at myself.
Eyup , Ciggy here with a cold. Expect a raspy voice, sniffles and my best attempt at staying consistent while only being able to breath through my gob. Still though; gave it a pop. This week we're talking about self care and how some truffles in Amsterdam helped me give myself permission to look after myself.
Eyup everyone, Episode 5 of BWM and I've busted up my knee, some wee fractures which have meant that I've got to live out my house husband; kept man, fantasy for a few weeks. In this episode I'm talking a lot about old habits, painkillers, craving and how negative afflictions narrow your field of view.
TW: Prison, Drug use, violence.
Last week I saw The Fabelmans and it got me thinking about first experiences of Cinema, home movies, first films with friends and growing as a film maker. In this episode I focus on the first time I took a camera to the story of Fathers return from prison and the consequences of treating everything like a film.
TW: Violence, Prison
Eyup everyone! Here's a lil bonus episode I recorded while finding my feet with podcasting. Didn't want to leave it on the desktop so I thought I'd put it out with this weeks episode too. I'm talking about presence, open top sandwiches and futility.
Same space, same pain staking venerability. Another episode of Butter Wouldn't Melt bought to you by your host Ciggy. This week we're talking about over coming my fear of physical conflict by throwing myself into controlled violence. As usual were unpacking some old emotions to make way for new experiences.
TW: Prison , Violence
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Ey up. Ciggy here with another episode of Butter Wouldn't Melt. This week we're talking about the power of silence, the things we fear out in the dark and inside ourselves and the experiences of my first Buddhist retreat.
TW: Prison
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The first episode of Butter Wouldn't Melt! Introducing myself, your host Ciggy.
In this episode I give you an introduction to myself and the story that shaped the person I am today. The story I'm still unpacking, the story I'm reshaping. How I became a Cinematographer and how I'm taking a new approach to how I look at my work, my life and my relationships.
TW: Themes of Prison & drug abuse.
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