Hareki: Recent Episodes
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a personal diary of my on-off-grid fruitarian-vegan life, light language, philosophy, self-talk, chants, music and realness.
I just listened that speech from Himmel, its title is Love is not personal. I liked how he finds love under all life as he opposes on the doctrine that says fear is shaping all our actions. As I hear him I tend to think love and fear are two poles of the same thing, they together should be seen as the scale of our life experience.
I was about to sleep but I couldn't because some past memories appeared and I had to put it out.
The child screams and construction machines in Ihe background. That's where I try to cure my PTSD.
Some comments about the current social surrounding, a little gift from my heart to yours and the latest decision İ made..
My tenant left a wreck to me. He's not answering to my messages. I'm being challenged big time.
The waves are so strong and the scale is almost infinite. We bring bold and loving. This is gonna pass.
Had a PCR test, got my bus ticket, ended up spending 3 days in a row at home with 2 of my ex lovers.
I'm riding the train, whatever the path brings. Waiting for the right moment to jump out to take another ride.
So the winds of autumn soothes the burning heart. Being able to bring tears, a vibrating heart, emanates loving frequencies of light.
After 1,5 months on the field.. This episode opens up with a super dark mood talk of mine. I'm still under PTSD and can't really handle any sort of violent behavior against me. My neighbor in the field, got super drunk and talked shit to my face. Same night I had food poisoning and had to puke my throat out, thought I was gonna die, seriously.. So this talk is that. You could enjoy I don't know.
After the incident the weather got extremely hot and I couldn't find any reason to stay in the field, especially being around my alcoholic narcissist neighbor became unbearable. So I took off by walk and came to İstanbul by bus. I'm quite happy that I did so, spending time with my family, having a peaceful home feels much better than dealing with zombies and extreme hot weather.
You'll listen some of my chanting in the city underground and a try out of an instrument I got from Kho Phangan, Thailand back in 2017..
And a little talk about how everything evolves in my life and in parallel with Gaia. We're burning until we're clean as ash.
We were thought of some Arabic prayers in the elementary school. A day started with remembering those..
I've got the land. Funny stuff happened. I'm grateful, stable and harmonious. Love and joy for everyone..
how easy to forget the inter-relational nature of our being and how soothing is it to remember that there is only onenesss with infinite creations.