cloudsinmyhead: Recent Episodes
Dea Cantika | dea4you
What would we do when there are clouds in our head? Sometimes we want to be sad, just sad... and then what? Listen to this podcast to get better of your feelings, and... i do me too by the way. :)
Monolog Tolong, Naskah karya N. Riantiarno ini ditampilkan oleh Kelompok Kerja Teater Tesa dalam rangka Peksiminus 2024.Disutradarai oleh : Ahmad Firdaus | Aktor: Dea | Artistik: Handa | Musik: Grace | Lampu: Rieny | Busana dan Tata Rias: Rieke, Dian.
๐ ๐ธ๐ป๐ผ๐ ๐๐ต๐ฎ๐ ๐ถ๐ ๐ฒ๐ฎ๐๐ ๐๐ผ some poeple toย ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐บ๐ผ๐๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐ผ๐๐ the person they loved in their ๐น๐ถ๐ณ๐ฒ, ๐ฏ๐๐ ๐ถ ๐ฑ๐ผ๐ป'๐ ๐ฒ๐๐ฒ๐ป ๐๐ต๐ถ๐ป๐ธ ๐๐ผ๐ ๐ฑ๐ถ๐ฑ. ๐ ๐ฑ๐ผ๐ป'๐ ๐ฒ๐๐ฒ๐ป ๐๐ต๐ถ๐ป๐ธ ๐๐ต๐ฎ๐ ๐๐ผ๐'๐ฟ๐ฒ ๐ท๐๐๐ ๐๐ต๐ฒ ๐๐ฎ๐บ๐ฒ. ๐ ๐๐ต๐ผ๐๐ด๐ต๐ ๐๐ผ๐ are ๐ฑ๐ถ๐ณ๐ณ๐ฒ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐ป๐, ๐ถ ๐๐ต๐ผ๐๐ด๐ต๐ ๐ถ ๐๐ฎ๐ ๐ฑ๐ถ๐ณ๐ณ๐ฒ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐ป๐ ๐ผ๐ป ๐๐ผ๐, ๐น๐ถ๐ธ๐ฒ ๐๐ต๐ฎ๐ ๐ถ ๐ณ๐ฒ๐น๐, ๐ฏ๐๐ ๐๐ผ๐... you ๐ฑ๐ถ๐ฑ๐ป๐ ๐ณ๐ฒ๐ฒ๐น ๐๐ต๐ฒ ๐๐ฎ๐บ๐ฒ, ๐ผ๐ฟ ๐บ๐ฎ๐๐ฏ๐ฒ i hope like ๐๐ผ๐'reย ๐ท๐๐๐ ๐ฝ๐น๐ฎ๐ ๐ฝ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐๐ฒ๐ป๐ฑ and wish that sometimes i could tell you that ๐ต๐ถ๐ฑ๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐ฎ๐น๐๐ฎ๐๐ ๐ป๐ฒ๐๐ฒ๐ฟ ๐ฏ๐ฒ ๐ฎ ๐ด๐ผ๐ผ๐ฑ ๐๐ฎ๐,
๐๐ผ๐ ๐ฟ๐ฎ๐ป ๐น๐ถ๐ธ๐ฒ ๐๐ฒ ๐ฑ๐ผ๐ป'๐ ๐ต๐ฎ๐๐ฒ ๐๐ผ ๐ณ๐ถ๐ ๐ฎ๐ป๐๐๐ต๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐ฎ๐ ๐ฎ๐น๐น. ๐๐๐ ๐๐ต๐ฎ๐ ๐ถ ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ป ๐๐ฎ๐ ๐ถ๐ ๐ถ ๐ฑ๐ผ๐ป'๐ ๐๐ฎ๐ป๐ ๐๐ผ ๐ฏ๐ฒ live in ๐๐ผ๐๐ฟ ๐๐ฎ๐, ๐ถ ๐ฑ๐ผ๐ป'๐ ๐๐ฎ๐ปt like we'reย ๐ถ๐ป ๐ฏ๐ฎ๐ฑ ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐น๐ฎ๐๐ถ๐ผ๐ป๐๐ต๐ถ๐ฝย ๐ณ๐ผ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐๐ฒ๐ฟ, ๐ถ๐'๐ ๐ฎ๐น๐๐ฎ๐๐ ๐ฏ๐ฒ๐ฒ๐ป ๐ต๐ฒ๐ฎ๐๐ ๐ผ๐ป ๐บ๐ ๐น๐๐ป๐ด๐, ๐ฒ๐๐ฒ๐ฟ๐๐๐ถ๐บ๐ฒ ๐ถ ๐๐ฟ๐ถ๐ฒ๐ฑ ๐๐ผ ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐บ๐ฒ๐บ๐ฏ๐ฒ๐ฟ. ๐ฌ๐ผ๐'๐ฟ๐ฒ ๐ฎ๐น๐๐ฎ๐๐ ๐ฏ๐ฒ ๐๐ผ๐บ๐ฒ๐๐ต๐ถ๐ป๐ด, ๐บ๐ฎ๐ธ๐ฒ ๐บ๐ฒ ๐ณ๐ฒ๐ฒ๐น ๐๐ผ๐บ๐ฒ๐๐ต๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐น๐ถ๐ธ๐ฒ ๐ผ๐น๐ฑ ๐๐ผ๐๐ป๐ฑ๐ ๐๐ต๐ฎ๐ ๐ท๐๐๐ ๐๐ถ๐น๐น ๐ฏ๐ฒ ๐ผ๐ฝ๐ฒ๐ป ๐ฎ๐ป๐ฑ ๐ผ๐ฝ๐ฒ๐ป ๐ฎ๐ด๐ฎ๐ถ๐ป, ๐ถ ๐๐ฎ๐ป๐ ๐๐ผ ๐ฒ๐ป๐ฑ ๐๐ต๐ถ๐ ๐ฏ๐๐ ๐ณ๐ถ๐ฟ๐๐, ๐ถ ๐๐ฎ๐ป๐ ๐๐ผ๐ ๐ฏ๐ฒ ๐ต๐ฒ๐ฟ๐ฒ ๐๐ผ ๐๐ฎ๐น๐ธ. | anchor.fm/dea-cantika
because i was never been a princess i don't need to be saved by any prince i don't even know his name and his emerald palace far, across the ocean or maybe right, under the sky--- with ten thousand step,ย upstairs. because i was never been a princess i don't need to be saved from any poisoned apples, or a castle--- that was once isolating me i'm none of them
because i was never been a princess i don't need to be saved i saved princes. and his egoism, and his childish side, and his tough mind~ and his stupid optimism; that he was the one who had the absolute rights to save the weaks
becauseย i was never been a princess i put my armor on and went into my own battlefield and i won the war, built my own fortress that only me in
because i was never been a princess you don't need to save me you can show me your everythingย and it's alright just to be who you are
because i was never been a princess, go to my palace and stay in
because i'm the queen. | anchor.fm/dea-cantika
i am someone with my door closed when people come home and then knocked out i do make them wait to convince either they actually coming for me, or not but they don't have enough patience they left just before i wish i'll be more open -this time. they don't know how much i'm struggling with my trauma to let people in and you can't use me just for your wasted love, my darling. i know well what it feels, to not become part of somebody's life that i wish to be it
i know well what it feels, to just being removed by the one that you once loved, more than you did to yourself
and i'm just union of pieces but still i try to love me. | anchor.fm/dea-cantika
i knew that losing you had been something that haunt me a lot, my time like stopped and my lungs felt empty. it was something that i never thought we'd passed before but however we did. losing you had been something that made my life more make sense called a living because when there a few were come, then there a few were'llย go. and somehow, it makes me learn a priceless lesson that we can't keep everyone we love to always being there in our life whatever we try to did it.
losing you had been painful but losing you had been something that waking up much of my sanity, that makes me not just someone older but also someone that wiser, someone whom can bear more rain-storms on her palm of hand and makes them an allay. losing you had been a disaster, had been such a battlefield that breaks almost of every part of body- every part of soul, that could ran dry every blood in someone's veins of loving, but also something that makes a moment worth to remember, to be longing, and finally; to let go.
to let go of things that didn't work out and to bury them in the depth place we called as memories.
losing you had been a regret, but never more.
Because i know, the amount of losses are still less than the amount that stays, and what i can do at this moment is not how to having guilt on them but how to always keep things that still exists and thankful of the way they are being here as long as the world permitted it.
losing you had been a war but now that i had found a peace in it then losing you can never been a such more calming thing and it's just wonderful, the way we still find happiness among of sadness and take place of ourselves in it, losing you can never felt this right.
the way they said that everyone deserves to being happy instead of sad, now i get myself in it, and also you; you deserved the same way as i feel. we deserved to being the best version of ourselves even if we can not ended up together nor united, and im glad--
that you're still being you with or without my affect,ย because letting go of you can never been this freer in my life.
Bagaikan laksana malaikat yang datang dengan kereta kencana, dia menjemputku dengan kepakan-kepakan halus disayapnya. Mengulurkan tangan sembari berkata, "Maukah kita terbang bersama?" Sayap-sayap putih itu berkilauan terkena cahaya. Ketika sang mega, langit itu bagaikan miliknya. Aku pun menghela napas, membuka mata, "Apakah semua ini nyata?" Namun dia hanya membalas dengan senyuman indahnya. "Peri kecilku, tunggu di sini, ya?," katanya. Seketika dia pergi tanpa lagi bersapa. Dan apakah kamu tahu? Setengah hatiku mati rasa. |