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Lyrics: No such thing as easy answers I'm not an easy person to love I've been on loop like my samplers But the beat it’s awkward and rough

No such thing as easy answers I'm not an easy person to love I've been on loop like my samplers But the beat it’s awkward and rough

Last year I learned indecision is a decision So I left the mission and my city with a vision Of going overseas and teaching English Thought i'd live with ease; my transition would be seamless

But right on time, my depression hit the hardest Nearly lost my mind in that reoccurring darkness Thought about writing raps, thought about writing fiction Thought I might relapse, then I thought of what was missing

I think what was missing was accomplishment Paired with fulfillment, understanding, and acknowledgment But how can I seek these out and internalize them When it's only on my good days that I can realize them

Often I despise them, like unrequited love Often I disguise them, like tons of random stuff Sex, money, or a dope vacation Seem like good substitutes in shallow conversation, but….

No such thing as easy answers I'm not an easy person to love I've been on loop like my samplers But the beat it’s awkward and rough

My mind is racing; my thoughts are clashing My time's erasing in a centrifugal fashion Passion is what drives me, but depression is where I crash Love is what guides me, but fear is what gets me cash

Anxiety that's the tool for survival Yet I am the fool, cause I stay idle Thoughts run marathons, my body couldn’t Yet I carry on even when I feel I shouldn’t

Cause close friends who become ghost friends Meet those ends and set those trends Of disappearing physically, reappearing mentally Searing into me of what it is i’m meant to be

And what i’m meant for is the moment But it meant more when I owned it Cause you can have comfort or you can have growth One or the other but you can’t have both

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