Troubledgirlpod.

People always ask me if I know their Momma or if I've met them before. Maybe it's the smile that's so memorable because they never seem to be around for long. I am over not giving myself the credit for dragging myself out of every grave I have been placed in against my will. My whole life I have carried everyone's baggage and tagged it as my own. Something I have found in this solitude is peace in my passions. I have been a writer since I could walk, my Grandmother always got me my favorite pens for our sleepovers. I'm the baby of the family; my eyes have been pried open around every corner like most kids pry their fathers on Christmas morning. I don't have any home videos and the Christmas card was always something we could never quite find the right pictures for. My whole life is full of things that I don't like to talk about. I don't talk about a lot of these things because I wouldn't be able to keep my own sanity if I were to relive the nightmares that have haunted me into adulthood. Something I was always taught was how to be professional. My tears terrify those around me out of their own fear of not being able to help me in the ways I have fought my whole life to learn on my own.Something people have always been able to feel is my strength. I have not grown to be this woman without watering her with anybody's pain but my own. I have bled my whole life to see myself as the woman I am today. To finally find protection In those who have never been scared of my tears. Those who have always known that I can see myself through anything and pick myself up from the bloodiest battles. One thing I will always do is figure out how to help everybody. Nobody will ever experience the pain I have been caused at the hand of others with my chest in the way.